this is a selfish entry

i'm going to talk about something which is much bigger than the petrol price hike, or the increase of global food price.

i want to talk about me.

she told me she has to start saving money for her trip next month. so, she said let's go out next month. then i pointed out to her, she'll be off next month for a week or two, then when she came back, for sure she gonna need to save some money to make it through the month.

eventually, perhaps next next month la kot?

entahlah.

sometimes i found it quite amusing, thinking back on how i could tahan till this day.
well, people say, the harder it is, lagi berbaloi.
or is it?

i guess i'm gonna follow a friend's advise: wait till she asks you out. then jual mahal la.

then next question is: what if she never do that?

then have to move on la kot.

and after all these years, i am yet to raise the white flag. permanently.

entahla..

oh, before that. is there any other way for me to overcome this brick wall? i'm so attached to it that i found it's hard for me to turn my back of it. i need to go beyond this brick wall!

help!