another screw up.

i just had to let her know. since it's hard to meet her face to face nowadays, i had to resort to the useless means of communication.
sms.

and the consequences,

i screwed it up again, big time.
and she replied with kind words, telling me dat d time will come, dat's for sure.
this time, i threw away my optimist hat, and don the pessimist mask.
and from it, i deciphered those words as "NO".

nevertheless, i'm quite relieved for i finally managed to let it out.
and now, i'm ready to move on.

the brick wall has been smashed. and there is nothing there for me.

at least, now i can breathe easily.