phlegmatic vs sanguine

as much as i truly understand the well-accepted fact that life is not so fair, i always hold on to the belief that God is fair, and the only one who is perfect.

being a phlegmatic person, i don't actually mind if someone just came up to me and said, "hey, i know we are suppose to hang out together now, but came up, and afraid i can't make it". as long as the reason given is valid, then i guess i'll excuse that person.

but i always find myself in the opposite situation.

if i'm late to a meeting or something, others frowned.
if i had to make last minute cancellation, others say i am being irresponsible.
if i made a mistake or some awkward remarks, others remember till eternity.

add the guilty consciences, and i present to you: sleepless nights and feeling of insecurity. more like i am the guilty ones. and i had to apologise to all.


but i'm only human after all.


if i can accept, forgive and forget; why can't they?

now i understand why i am attracted to the serenity of being alone. just me and the nature.
no pre-conceived ideas, no pre-judgement, no high expectation from me. just me.

but then again, being a strong sanguine, it's my nature to be amongst people. have this feel to be accepted in the crowd.

clash of the personalities?

u decide.