bounce2

ok, here are list of entries aku akan usahakan untuk tatapan umum:-

(not in any order)

• kisah handphone
• persiapan perkahwinan
• movies for 2010
• cita-cita ku
• 40 things i want to do before i'm 40 years old
• kekasihku

it's AirAsia now for the Company's EnP arm

2 days ago, the subsidiary's region office received a new instruction from our HQ.

staff is to use AirAsia and Fireflyz, replacing the normal practice of flying with the national carrier MAS.

as usual, people beginning to become suspicious, and i can sense the dissatisfaction began to brew amongst the staff. they might be pointing fingers to HR.

*sigh*

so i immediately pointed out to them, that the new direction originates from our Finance department (i dont think so they feel that way). and it's not HR doings (although HR introduced new policies in the not-too-distant past)

they voiced out their dissatisfaction, and i decided to rebutt their grievances. here's what i wrote:-

(putting normal employee hat)

Ok, the ones who will be affected akan betul2 terasa. There’s no denying that. Am so used to MAS Malaysia Hospitality. Ah, the free flow juices…

(/putting normal employee hat)

Since there’s nothing much that we can do, since the management already made and cascade the decision; all we can do now is to stay positive and try to look things from management PoV (also, make sure our bosses pun naik AirAsia jugak lah).

FAQ

But AirAsia does not allow open-ticket or reschedule flight. Meeting at KL always postpone at the last minute. How lah?

True. But let this teach us all (PCSB groupwide), to be firm in arranging meetings, especially those affecting staffs travelling from regions.

If say for example, we already bought the flight ticket, and has confirmed on the meeting a week earlier, only suddenly to be informed that the meeting has been postponed to another date (yes, sungguh frustrating), then I would like to suggest for us to back-charge the PONC cost to the dept that organized the meeting.

Cannot collect frequent flyer points anymore!!!

As mentioned in previous email, supposedly all Enrich points are actually owned by the Company. But as till now, I believe the company is closing one eye on this. Let us just keep low profile on this, else maybe suddenly the management decide to instruct MAS to delete all frequent flyer points off its staffs :P (like what happened to the previously practice of giving meal allowance to new staffs reporting to region. Some good fellas decided to brag about it to their friends at other OPUs, and these things made their way to Group Talent Sourcing, and now no meal allowance for the new staffs).

Seats not comfortable!

Err… that one cannot help. That is personal preference. But am sure the hot seats tu bit more selesa than the cold seats. (hot and cold, get it?) more leg space. I donno, never buy that hot-seats pun.

AirAsia ticket cost more than MAS!

No comment on that as well, as the direction actually came from CFA. It would be wise not to argue on that. (I’m sure they’ve struck agreement with AirAsia on getting corporate rate or something).

Cannot open ticket anymore!!

Hush hush lah! Don’t say it out loud. Why in the first place are you “open”-ing your ticket, when the company paid for you to use that ticket? Adakah anda “menyalahguna kemudahan Syarikat”? LOL

AirAsia is known for flight delays lah..

And I thought some of u guys said AirAsia is much better than MAS in timing? Anyway, this could be another reason why we CAN take our flight during office hour, or a day before! J

3 years

KL reminds me of loneliness.

it reminds me of how lonely i am.

seriously. take a walk at KLCC, the park, or anywhere, and you'll see couples or groups walking together. unlike me, who prefers to be all by myself.

and suddenly i felt like i'm a sore loser.

and while i was driving and "melayan" this feeling, i realised that i'm already in my 3rd years with the Company. and in a couple of months, will also mark another milestone for me.

it has been 3 years, and i'm still single.

(depressed sekejap)

2 days acquantaince

she was manning one of the exhibition booth. at first glance, she seems like an ordinary girl. but there is something about her. i can feel that. i do.

so, when i told a friend of mine, she said sarcastically, "why la men like women with innocent face?". i have to agree with her. she does look innocent. well, maybe she is still new to this working thingy.

so on every opportunity i have, i went to her booth. at first, interacting with her colleague, and after a while, we chatted casually with each other. she told me that she just came back from Australia, completed her Masters in Accounting, after graduating with a degree in Journalism. we chatted as if we've known each other more than 1 1/2 days.

then she asked me, how old am i? when i told her that i'm 25, she was surprised. she did not expect me to be of the same age with her, as she (like most others) thought that i am 30 years old. and then we shared some things that usually people don't share with strangers :)

then she told me, that i have similar resemblance of one of her best friends. the way i talk, the way i put my hands into the trouser's pockets when speaking, and things like that. hurmm.. i guess now i know where is one of my other 6 is.

and suddenly, i know why i feel like there is something about this girl! she looks like Intan Suria a.k.a MegiKari a.k.a TanTan (nama manja muahahahaha)! i mean, the way she laugh, the way she made some snide remarks, and some other things lah. even her smile resembles Intan's.

so she asked me, "do you facebook?". i said "yeah. penting tu". then we continued chatting, until she revealed that she has a friend in HR. and i also know her.

by the end of the forum, we parted our ways. and being a foolish that i am, i was unable to gather courage to ask for her handphone number or email address. and here i am, writing this down as a proof of my cowardice. i guess i'm just being too conventional. and old school. hahaha.

and like every other sane and desperate guy would do, i logged on to my Facebook account. i opened my colleague's page, and searched for this girl in her friends' list.

and there it was, a locked profile. but the profile picture is not the picture that i hoped to see.

it was her picture in the arms of another man.

ok, girlfriend orang. cross her name from the list!

emcee bidan terjun

"good job. you guys are good"

all we can do was smile as a gesture to the compliments. we were too tired, and fatigue got the best of us. blame it on the lack of sleep, and disturbance on our sleep pattern.

we were told that the dry-run will be held at 1.oo am, as the ballroom is being used by a wedding function the night before. and when came 0100 hours, we were informed that the banquet told us that the ballroom will ready by 0300 hours.

so we continued our sleep, only to wake up sharp at 3.00 am (thanks to Menaka), with the hope that we will be able to do the dry run as scheduled. much to our dismay, the ballroom was still yet to be ready for the event! the floor was still messy, the backdrop was nowhere to be seen, and the audio was yet to be in place (yes, there are lots of grammar errors here. lantak laa).

we waited until 4 am, and since we've wasted an hour waiting for nothing, both of us decided to return back to our rooms, and came back to the hall by 5.30 am. hoping to be able to conduct at least a dry run for the launching gimmick.

we waited then, and only by 7am, the audio people came and setting up everything, and by that time we had to rush to return back to our rooms, refreshed ourself via shower, and got ready for the event. we only managed to run through the launching gimmick with the team (no dry run tho!).

so, yeah. when one of the speakers mentioned to the crowd, how the emcees are to be congratulated for the job well done, although we were hit by the lack of sleep, we really appreciate it. we feel that we deserve it.

it's not the organising committee members, the chairman, the protocol, the floor manager; but us the bidan-terjun emcees who insisted on having the dry run. yes, other team members also were staying up throughout the morning, waiting for the hall to be cleaned and arranged by the banquet team for the event. but the credit all goes to us. muahahhahaha

sekian luahan hati seorang emcee bidan terjun. nasib all internal VIPs cakap great job to both of us. we can see that our name sure naik punya the next time the company needs emcee. muahahahaha

+ve

i am positive!

hello Santa

Dear Santa,

why have you not commenting my blog entry? is it because you're mad that you can no longer receive mails from kids? fret not Santa, for the decision has been reversed. you may ask your lawyers to rest now. want to know more? click here!

since i've shared this info with you, you better comment at my entry, or better, buy me those things that i want to.

else,

i'll come over to your house, and bring along with me officers from Wildlife Department to rescue those reindeer. i am pretty much sure that you do not posses any license to keep them as pet, and thus i wonder what will they react once knowing that you used those reindeers as slave?

so, you have 2 options.

option 1: get me those things i wanted

option 2: failure to do so, i'll come over to your place. well, they might take your reindeers away. but me? i'll bring along my lawyers to sue you for failure to give me what i want, and also to sue you on copyrights infringement, even your lawyers wont be able to defend you.

i know your address.

and for the betterment of the kids around the world, i am going to share your address with the them all.

Santa Claus, 1 Santa Claus Lane, North Pole, AK 99705

Xmas wish list

dear Santa,

i've done an internet search, and i found that there is no reference to you mentioned anywhere in Christian's holy scriptures. Which this brings to the fact that you are actually a Caucasians icon, not a religion icon. Hence, i am writing to you in the spirit of 1Malaysia and brotherhood of global peace and Mutual Understanding of Religions, and asking you to fulfill my this year's Xmas wish.

rest assured, that i've been a good boy (those who said i've been bad, watch out punks, Coz i;m gonna slice your throat later tonight).

so, this is my 2009 Xmas wishlist

1. full set of Rockband musical instruments for Wii
2. Wii-Fit boards and games
3. Motion-Plus for my Wii
4. hit titles of Wii videogames
5. ps3

will you give me these?

22102009

(this has becoming of a bad habit of mine)

achoo! oh my, there are loads of dust over here. well, as usual, this entry will start with words of apologising to fellow readers (if there is any, due to inactivity for the past month) for the long silence. loads of things happened throughout the month, and i am perfectly content with the happenings. hence, lack of emo-entries. hahaha

office gossip first.

under the new VP, seems like Human Resources Management is heading to new direction. In line with Tan Sri President's speech theme, it's time for us to have a major paradigm shift.

we need to change the way we think. rather than having this victim mindset, one must change to see the positive side of everything.

ahh.. i must say that this is hard, even for me. i am a staunch supporter of changes for the good, but please oh please tell me, the masses need to be informed on the changes then only can they understand and embrace the changes.

i wonder if the new management truly understand the HR credibility formula.

Credibility = Communication + Compassionate + Reliability

but where are we now? everything is done via the secured, encrypted, confidential way.

even within HR fraternity, only selected few have the privilege of knowing what's happening.

there are rumors of outsourcing of non-technical positions, as what happened to the IT arm. until there is concrete proof that is happening, i'll just assume that as rumors (u just cannot discount anything nowadays hahaha HR sendiri pun dah tak percaya HR...how is that?)

Social life:

ok, since i moved to Kota Kinabalu, i am self-proclaimed anti-social. i mean, i rarely join activities with others, mainly due to having no car as the main mode of transportation. even Sherie was surprised when i told her that i no longer socialised over there hahahhaa.

good thing is, i'm having lots of rest (due to excessive travelling to and fro KL. am not complaining!), more time for me to sleep, and also i save a lot! hahahaha.

anyway, 2009 is approaching its finishing line. am thinking of a road trip, perhaps to penang, but am rain-checking it first due to its monsoon season over here.

my thoughts goes to the flood victims. political parties, this is the moment for you to serve the people!

till then!

Wednesday and Thursday

Wednesday ended with one of my colleague, shared with us a farewell note from his friend who accepted the CTO. together with the email, he added his own remark, "Energy Receive, Energy Return, Inspiring People Everywhere.. sigh".

so when I replied, "awat Tun lagu tu?"

another person responded with "....lepas ni sure jadi issue plak cuti panjang untuk kahwin"

Thursday started with me, responding to Wednesday's email, by trying to rally their spirit and motivate them for this. among the points i mentioned to them are:

• let this be a reminder to us, that someday when we are at the managerial level, let us not be trapped in this system, and do the same thing
• let this remind us, that for us to go through this, we need to assist each other, regardless whether it's in our KPI or not.
• also, for our bosses to be able to defend us, we need to meet our KPIs as well as go beyond the KPIs.

then someone replied,

"by going beyond KPIs, then people will lower the KPI expectation".

i replied,

"going beyond KPI is not lowering the expectation. going beyond KPI is after meeting your target, you did something that add value to your work.

a simple analogy:

race car driver.

main target (KPI): to complete the race within top ten place. this will guarantee the team point(s) for the Constructor Points.

side target (beyond KPI):

1. to show to the audiences his driving skill. this will awe the audiences, thus increasing his fan base
2. to ensure the cameramen are always focusing on his car. this would increase the visibility of the sponsors whose stickers were all over the car. ultimately, seeing high visibility in the media, the companies will continue sponsoring the team.
3. again, to show his skill in the circuit. this will increase his visibility to other teams, and increase his opportunity to become the main driver for another racing team.

what say you?

one sunday morning

i was at the newsstand, picking up the Sunday Times and Utusan Mingguan (yeap, i still read them. why? cannot meh? boring kot asyik baca benda pro-PR online. baca dua-dua la dey, baru balance and atas pagar).

then today's headline for Harian Metro caught my attention

Anak Haram Bercambah (click on the link)

and suddenly, this pakcik came out of nowhere, and said, "nilah, anak 1Malaysia"

i responded by telling him "ni bukan sebab 1Malaysia, ni sebab kurang didikan agama"

but still that pakcik continued with his blabbering on his 1Malaysia causing anak haram birth rate skyrocketed.

urgh, the mentality of some pakcik and makcik. what does 1Malaysia got to do with this thing? because it promotes tighter integration with people of other creeds and skin-colour?

ok lah, nowadays mmg bnyk benda and tempat yang boleh merosakkan/melemahkan akidah muncul di seluruh negara. but before we could start attacking these sins dens, are we not guilty as well? everything starts at home. families play important roles in shaping the child's identity.

ok la, u cannot put the blame on the families sahaja. semua pun salah. termasuk la sanak saudara sahabat handai.

but to terus kata "ni lah anak 1malaysia ni.."??

since ko support parti2 PR, jom lakukan sesuatu. kita tunjukkan yang semua itu takkan berlaku sekiranya PR memerintah. OK?

perutusan khas sempena hari Sabtu ni

lusa, 2 of my younger sisters are getting engaged (yea yea, for sure the question that will pop out from you guys is "so, ko bila pulak?")

my sisters are funny bunch. they once told me that the agenda for the engagements day are as follow:-

11.30 pagi - majlis pertunangan alya
12.50 tghari - para jemputan dan keluarga kedua-dua belah ke masjid berdekatan untuk solat Zohor
1.45 tghari - majlis makan tghari antara keluarga kedua-dua pihak lelaki
2.30 ptg - majlis pertunangan sabira
3.30 ptg - majlis pernikahan abg amil

LOL. they even said, "abg mil, dalam agenda dah ada. tapi calon abg amil carik sendiri lah!"

anyway, as much as i am happy that finally Nazlan clan is sudah maju, suddenly sadness rushed into me. they are no longer my little sisters (partly lah kan?).

so, lepas ni tak boleh

membuli, memaksa-rela, mengarah, mengambil-tanpa-kebenaran, mem-veto, membuli, menyuruh, memaksa, mem-black-mail, meng-reverse-kan keputusan, menggunakan kuasa mutlak sebagai seorang abang, membuli dan membuli mereka lagi.

tak pasal2 nanti kena belasah dengan boyfren/tunang/bakal husband terchenta itu.

well, here's to my lovely sisters, Alya and Sabira, congratulations for making the big steps. kitorang tak marah korang langkah bendul. tapi agak2 laa.. mana hadiah yang korang janji kan dulu tu?

and yeah, should your tunang hurt you even a scratch, pandai-pandailah korang. kalo nak mengadu dekat aku, siap sedia lah dengan kesan dan akibatnya. kalo tak kena "haa..padan muka" dengan aku, maybe dapat syarahan perdana, takpun untung2 kena tulah abangmu yang berdaulat ni. yela, tak kan nak pukul2 kot? rasuah makan kat hotel 5 bintang cukup la..

oh, kalo lepas ni korang tak back-up yong, kak ain and abgmil bila org tanya "adik2 kamu dah selamat bertunang dah pun, kamu tu bila lagi?", siaplah korang. renungan tajam ziana zain akan ditujukan khas kepada korang sepanjang sambutan hari raya/open houses/kenduri kendara/hari deepavali/hari krismas/hari new year/etc...

sweet kan saya? :)

THE house dilemma

(entries on 1Malaysia thingy can wait.. current situation requires my full focus)

am currently in dilemma.

option A

rental fee: RM1300

type: 2 bedrooms, 1 toilet apartment

furnitures: bed, sofa, air-cond, fan, ventilated stove, washing machine, built in wardrobes, refrigerator

facilities: security guard, swimming pool, tennis court, children's playground, jogging track

pros:

come December, there's gonna be only two of us (as Zaidun might be moving out as his wife could be transferred here). so, no need to find another housemate. just Kimie and i.

good facilities i.e swimming pool, tennis court, security guard

nearby town area (hence the kinda premium price). can continue walking to office.

a newly refurbished unit. no need to worry about

good service by landlord.

cons:

premium price as rental fee is divided to 2 person only i.e each rm650 at least. after factoring the utilities, about RM800 per month per person. which leaves me about RM300 as my duit belanja for the whole month.

if have to incur RM800 per month, then good-bye personal flight tickets back to KL, good-bye sesi berfoya-foya sepanjang bulan, and good-bye to lavish spending on unnecessary food.

option B

rental fee: RM1200

type: 3 bedrooms, 3 toilets, double-storey semi-d

furnitures: sofa, washing machine, cabinets, wardrobes, air-cond, automatic gate, refrigerator

facilities: none

pros:

got mangga tree in the courtyard. according to landlord, manis woo

spacious indoor and outdoor area.

once we have new housemate, the rental fee can be divided to three. meaning monthly expenditure will be about RM600 only.

besar oo the porch. can fit 7 cars.

have spacious area for BBQ and parti liar.

3 bedrooms + 3 toilets. no need to berebut toilet.

cons:

i tend not to be picky, but my gut feeling tells me that it's not the house (maybe already been influenced with the apartment kunun?)

quite a walking distance to the nearest bus stop

to go to the office either by car, or bicycle. impossible to walk (it's possible, but i guess you got the drift). in other words, jauh dari town. (ok je, saje je nak ngade2)

no stove is provided.

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option B looks nice, but we have some reservation (kitchen area i.e no stove provided, gut feelings)

option A also looks nice, but might stretch a bit in terms of financial side. this option offers me RM300 of spendable money, while option b offers me RM500 of spendable money (if we have additional housemate lah)

i guess am gonna ask around people at the office, if any of them want to join our house. if yes, then we shall proceed to option B without any hesitation. Else, option A will always be in our mind.

our Netizens yang suruh orang lain Open Minded tapi dia sendiri cakap tak serupa bikin

well, before i'm off to bed (now that i believe she is already asleep), this would be the last entry for the day.

i guess i can declare it (as far as i'm concerned) that we Malaysians, we like to talk cock about our government and society.

typical case, when some hot and juicy stuffs being posted in RPK's main website, you can see or read zealots pouring in their thoughts and views on the mishaps, corruptions and the worsening situations happening in Malaysia.

and most time than not, the comments are full of negative remarks, saying this shit happens as long as BN/UMNO is still in power and shits like that. and how PR will never allow this and in fact they will clean up this pile of elephant dungs, in the names of Tidak Menyalahgunakan Wang Rakyat.

you can hardly find comments given by those people who really knew about the situation. who really gave ideas and suggestions on how we could tackle the problems and ensuring it will never resurface again.

2 reasons why i have paultan.org as one my links here in my blog. 1) coz i want to keep up-to-date with latest development in motoring world, 2) for the antics from the readers everytime Proton was mentioned in the article.

they can never find love with Proton. say, out of 150 comments, i would assume about 100 comments are bashing Proton, without any constructive suggestions.

we also bash Najib's idea of 1Malaysia, but have we ever at least provide constructive ideas to the vision?

but when suddenly Anwar came up with this idea, the whole netizens support the idea, to the extent proclaiming that it is much better than current thing.

even when the idea has never been tested before.

and since i need some amusement, let's imagine that this blog a very popular and well-visited by our Netizens.

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Oil Company profits not as good as in Q1 2008

due to volatile market conditions, as well as political instability in parts of the world, the demand for crude oil sank lowest in 5 years time causing the price to drop about 56% from last month's. However, the production costs are still high due to increase risks to explore for new wells.

comment(s):-

@bodohlaBN - kerajaan BN/UMNO tak buat apa2 ke untuk pastikan harga petrol tak naik? ahh.. semua duit tu masuk poket masing2. nilah korupsi kerajaan sekarang!

@Pakatan4Eva - betul2. 1Malaysia la konon. duit habis rasuah, dengan beli kapal selam. guna la duit tu untuk subsidi petrol kan bagus. apa faedahnya beli submarine tu?

@SayaAnakJati - itu semua pakai duit PETRONAS tu! salahguna duit rakyat!

@bodohlaBN - betul tu! songlap duit rakyat!

@Pakatan4Eva - betul2. salahguna duit rakyat. tapi tak apa. kalau PR memerintah, kita akan guna duit PETRONAS untuk tanggungan subsidi petrol rakyat. Kami mesra rakyat!

@JomMenyampuk - betul2! patut guna duit PETRONAS untuk subsidi rakyat, sebab petroleum tu adalah hak rakyat!

@Eh? - korang, mana la PETRONAS ada duit cukup untuk subsidi petrol kita semua.

@SayaAnakJati - ah! ada je duit tu. yang UMNO/BN guna untuk beli submarine tu siapa suruh! lepas tu guna untuk bail-out PROTON, PERWAJA, Kicap Tamin, semua lah! Weh, encik Eh? kalo takde fakta, tak payah la jadi tali barut BN/UMNO!

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tu belum lagi pasal Team F1 malaysia tu.

*sigh*

shooh shoooh go away

sometimes you just have this feeling of that you are nobody.

if somehow you are lost in the crowd, no one is looking for you.

the best parts are,

when you feel like extroverting and such, you feel like no one is there to acknowledge your very existence.

and when you feel like "hey, i guess it's time for me to get back in my cave, since nobody cares about me", suddenly people are giving their attention to you.

i dislike it when two forces, totally opposites of each other, exist when i know that both forces are the ones that i longed to be.

ok, shooh shooh go away.

i am so want to get inside this cave of mine

1Malaysia: Identifying the possible obstacle #1

note: as much as i feel that 1Malaysia concept might be just the political ploy/vision of Najib, i strongly support this thing, as it is already long overdue.

1Malaysia nowadays is among the hot topic, at least in the media. you can see lots of 1Malaysia advertisements, either by private corporations or by government agencies.

but seriously, i feel as if there are several stumbling blocks that need to be cleared, before we could realise this mission.

obstacle #1:

radio. especially the private stations.

example:

#1: traffic update "jalan di area damansara sesak menuju ke jambatan kabel. Tambak Johor sesak menghala ke Singapura. Jambatan Pulau Pinang menghala ke Pulau sesak kerana berlaku kemalangan.." yes, i know that traffic jam is part and parcel in daily commuting to work. but seriously, why are they only informing on the situation in Peninsular? apa kat Borneo takde jam ke? (well, maybe because nobody from East Malaysia called to inform on the traffic situation. so fellow lads, next time you're stuck in traffic jam, just pick up the phone and call those traffic rangers!)

#2: iklan ataupun their mobile promo team "membeli belahlah di suria KLCC" or "sah pada outlet Shah Alam" or "kami sekarang berada di ss3 petaling jaya, dan berada di sini selama 15 minit sahaja" it makes me wonder, these stations are they catering only for those peeps in Klang Valley or are they broadcasting to the whole nation? bila tempat tu luar Klang Valley, baru lah sebut "kini kami di bandar Muar, Johor untuk promosi zoomers! kami akan berada di sini selama 15 minit sempena Jelajah Selatan!"

more to come...

1Malaysia: Apa beza Sabah, Sarawak dan Semenanjung?

some people questioned, in light of 1Malaysia concept, why do we still need the Restricted Travelling Document and Work Permit to work in Sabah and Sarawak?

the answer is, because those are the rules stated by both states prior joining the Federation of Malaysia. they want to have direct control on immigration, to avoid the influx of non-sabahan/sarawakian people into their land. this would cause imbalance, economically and socially, in the population demographics.

given this situation, how actually could we truly achieve 1Malaysia?

it irks me a lot when we often mention that there are 3 major races in Malaysia (Malay, Chinese and Indian), followed by the Seranis and Bumiputeras.

what the heck?

these 3 major races are not for Malaysia. those races are the majority in Semenanjung!

this is where the actual problem lies.

when we projected the image of Malaysia, we portrayed the Semenanjung part only. and when we need to show to the world that we are rich in biodiversity in cultures and places of interests, suddenly Sabah and Sarawak come into the picture.

the major races in Malaysia are the Bumiputeras, Malays, Chinese and Indians.

however, we all should collectively call ourselves, Malaysian.

and please.. all this dis-trust should ends here. it's too bad when we have some misconceptions to our friends from other states, it is heartbreaking to know there are stereotyping between Semenanjung and Borneo people.

we need to learn of the difference, and respect it.

we always say that in discussion people should be open-minded. question is, are we expecting the same thing from ourselves too?

1Malaysia, for me, is not another political ploy by Najib. it's actually the extension of Rukunegara concept originated from his father.

it's something that we really need to incorporate within ourselves.

i am too tired to have this stereotyping mindset.

i will not stop condemning the bad acts, but i will not (hopefully) say, "Dasar Orang ______!"

it hurts when people told me that orang Semenanjung this and that, orang Sabah this and that, and orang Sarawak this and that. because upon reflection, all statements have the same message, "that we are ignorant fools, who fail to respect others, in the same time demanding them to respect us".

we are Malaysian.

Salam 1Malaysia!

perghhh

perghhh.. lama tak buat keja macam ni.. everyday buat camni, boleh gila pala hotak huhuhu

good morning world!

tidur

it was drizzling out there. i mean hujan lebat jugak la (ke sama je maksud dia?)

while i was lying on my bed, surfing the net (obviously facebook-ing), we were texting each other.

and just as i was about to reply to her text, i fell asleep.

an hour later, terbangun dengan sendirinya, and saw there's a new message in my inbox.

bunyinya seolah-olah begini, "aik? dah tidur dah ke siput?"

so i quickly replied to that, and unfortunately, i believe she's already asleep.

so, i continued facebook-ing, and writing this entry.

sekian terima kasih.

haih, tetiba tak sabar nak hari jumaat la pulak. nak balik. nak makan murtabak daging.

nota kaki:-

(siput sbb lmbt sgt reply sms/email hahahaha)

28th august 2009 - 31st august 2009 : KL

Abuya called just now, and Ummi said that she is more than happy to sponsor my flight ticket back to KL, during this coming long Merdeka weekend.

so i immediately checked Airasia and MAS website, and luckily there are seats available at AirAsia.

booked them, and voila. will be back home this Friday and back to my oh-this-is-where-the-heart-is land on Monday.

well, too bad for the fact that i will have to leave her during this weekend. or perhaps she already has plan for herself.

oh, i really have to get her that thing. else, mengamuk dia nanti hahaha

chow. it's raining, and i should be sleeping by now.

rambang nota # 102109210

alhamdulillah.. habis saatu hari ni... ada lagi doploh semilan.. sempat ke ek? dahla tadi membaca dalam keadaan separa sedar hahahahaha

teruskan berusaha, nobita!

gaji baru masuk semalam..

and by this time of writing, i only have RM20 in my wallet.

but,

i've cleared my monthly credit card payment,

i've cleared one of my credit card's outstanding amount (hence, i am no longer in debt to you CIMB bank!),

i've paid my telecommunication bills,

i've paid the utility bill,

i've paid my monthly commitment to GTS duit kutu team,

i've paid my rental fee, and

i've paid my monthly vehicle loan payment.

however, i am pretty sure i can make it through the month because,

it's Ramadhan, and i plan to break fast at mosque every working days,

my housemates are going to reimburse back their share of rental fee, and

my travelling claims should be paid within next week.

however, i might have to discount some of the revenue, due to,

i am yet to pay my share of ASTRO and installation fees,

i am yet to pay my share of household items bought last week and this week, and

i might be travelling back to KL by end of this week.

here's to wonderful Ramadhan, and may it brings the best out of us.

permulaan Ramadhan adalah rahmat , pertengahan adalah keampunan dan pengakhiran adalah hindar dari api neraka

so why?

a colleague of mine shared with me what happened during her sister's akad nikah.

before starting the akad nikah ceremony, the tok kadi asked the groom this question.

"so, kenapa anda nak berkahwin?"

i can imagine the guy's facial expression, when being caught off-guard by tok kadi.

so, i guess it seems natural to raise that question, when suddenly the kahwin thing was discussed during our non-work discussion via emails.

some, playing the role as the devil's advocate said, "sebab nak halalkan seks". they gave points, points that were taught to us during our schooling days during kelas Pendidikan Islam.

jatuh hukum wajib untuk berkahwin sekiranya tidak mampu menahan diri dan berkemampuan.

sunat hukumnya bagi mereka yang berkemampuan, dan masih mampu menahan diri.

however, most of us believes, it is more than that. marriage is more than menghalalkan seks.

but really, should one fine day, a tuk kadi OR your parents OR your grandparents OR your future in-laws ask you that question, what would you say?

"jadi, kenapa saudara mahu berkahwin?"

Movie Review: District 9

if i could only use one sentence to describe District 9, it would be,

"this movie showed the good, not too good, bad, not so bad, and bad-ass sides of human who will discrimanate when they can, and be charitable when they feel like; all in while able to swtich personalities in just split second depending on how he/she perceives the threat or condition"

Things Amil Will Tell You

excerpts from the soon to be published best-selling book, "Things Amil Will Tell You"..bila nak publish? entahla hahahhahahaha

so, she posed this question to us,

"korg, i have a problem and i think it's eating me inside, like seriously i sangat sensitive la skarang, why ar?"

so i told her, why:-

Well,
1) You might be keeping it to urself for a loooong time. Which is not good. Solution? You need to let it out, share with others. By doing so, you will feel that half of the burden already removed
2) Lack of self-confidence. Low self-esteem. Solution? Always think positive, look at the bright side, and always and always have good thoughts on the outcomes of the event
3) as a friend once told me, “stop and smell the roses”. Anyway, to at least see the glimpse of what the solution could be, disconnect yourself from the situation and try to see the issue from 3^rd point of view. What would other people do? What would others see? Also, pamper yourself. Not too much, but just enough to keep your mind off the issue for A WHILE.
4) Avoid having prolong escapism from the issue. You will still have to face and solve it, hence by running away or pretending it’s not there, is not a wise thing to do. As mentioned in point no.3, yes, you may take a vacation or have a long weekend to free yourself from the issue. But, avoid falling into the trap of feeling down and demoralized once the vacation ends. The purpose of the getaway is to refresh the mind, not to go away and hope things will fix on its own.
5) And not to forget, to every problem there is always at least a solution. Usaha, Tawakal, Do’a. Allah is always there for us.

Then she responded by saying,

well, what if i say im tired of just looking at the bright side i.e. living in denial!!!
sometimes (or rather most of the time) i keep things to myself because im too conscious, takut orang boring dengar what i have to say
and i dont know why, but i rasa when i talk, ppl dont listen. and i hate that and it hurts sgt when ppl dont
so i lagi rela keep things to myself
and i selalu rasa orang selalu take advantage of me, or condemn what i have to say just because i tak cepat marah

so i advised her

Love,

1. There is a fine line on living in denial AND looking at the bright side. Living in denial is like pretending that nothing happened, or if it does happened, it will fix by its own (refer to point.4 in previous advice). Looking at the bright side, in my context, is slightly different. You confirm with yourself that, yes, I am in deep shit. Then, think of positive things i.e luckily it happened to me now, not when I was in the toilet doing my daily business. Lepas tu, which even I myself found macam susah sikit, is to formulate plan how to make things better. And finally, work it out. Conclusion: get yourself back to reality, use God-given gift to think of how to get out of the mess, and implement the plan with all our strength (external factors are to be ignored)

2. You think people listen to me when I talk? Most of the time, they don’t. but who cares? You tell them because you need to let it out. If you tell them because you need their help or tips or guidance, then you have to be selective of to whom you’re talking to. When telling people, always have the purpose. Is it because I just want to let it out? Or is it because I want to get others opinion? I believe, most of the time, you want others to think for you. Hence, the disappointment when they cannot come out with any solution, thus making you feel like they are not listening. Anyway, kalau dok cerita2 dalam club, memang tak dengar la kot? Sumerang tgh sibuk dgr the glaring music from the nearby speakers. Conclusion: know your purpose of telling others, and know your audience. (macam I dok berleter panjang ni laa.. only u je yang maybe akan digest. The others, maybe akan baca sikit, pastu delete hahahaaha)

3. Take advantage of you? Condemn of what you have to say just because you tak cepat marah? Clearly you have low self esteem. Love, in my circle of friends, I selalu je kena buli/kutuk/kena target. But who cares? Don’t take them seriously. Kena sabar la sikit. Senang cerita, get out of that circle. If you’re stuck with them i.e office mates, have minimal contact with them.

4. Susah2 pun, express yourself by writing. Lately ur writing macam dah pendek2 kot? hahaha

lullaby

as the moon shines brightly,

and i lay on this couch, watching reruns of old Transformers cartoon;

my heart thinks of you.

yes you.

oh my soft, comfortable and tender bed.

i'm better off to sleep now.

wrestling

it has been a long time since i last watched WWE flagship program, Monday Night RAW.

and much to my delight, tonight's show was awesome.

top faces:

DX

John Cena

top heels:

Legacy

Randy Orton

and by now, i'm already pass the oh-how-i-miss-the-rock-and-stone-cold era.

lesson learnt #128198219

phew. i just serviced my debt of RM4000. still got RM1000 to go. and then, to keep servicing my monthly debt of RM500.

after much soul-searching sessions (cheit, walhal masa tengah termenung), i realised that most of the expenditures came from purchasing flight tickets BKI-KUL-BKI. well, ever since i'm here, my credit card usage is mainly to buy flight tickets.

only starting last month, i'm using the card to service my 24 months installment when i purchased the 40" LCD TV+DVD player+Home Theatre System. Hence, the RM500 monthly debt service.

so basically, i've spent all of my bonus on servicing my debt. the feeling?

much relieved!

Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH for the bounty.

when the eyes are getting heavier..

for how should i say this,

for the feeling i have inside of me.

shall i wait till the day ends?

shall i wait till the hostess rings the bell to adjourn?

or should i just plopped it when we are to meet early in the morning?

for every thought of your smile,

for every thought of your naughty words,

for every thought of your reminders,

for every thought of how i long to see you.

till then..

goodnight, and sweet dreams

1Malaysia

we met, went for a trip together, and we clicked. it can't actually remember how or when.

and now, we are much comfortable with each other.

there might indifferences between us, but those are the things that make us unique.

here's to 1Malaysia spirit.

learn to unplug, and what to when we're unplugged

it is imperative for us to unplug in order to recharge ourselves.

ironic, isn't it? unplug to charge?

we need to unplug ourselves from,

those thing that haunts us

those thing that makes us miserable

those thing that hurts us

those thing that loves us

and those things that affect us

and vice versa, ceteris paribus.

but remember, you can not and must not unplug from the spiritual inner self.

to Allah the Almighty, we must humbly serve, for we are nothing but his servant.

but are we a loyal and obedient one?

when we've think of this through, then automatically other connections will be plugged in back.

and walla, we are now fully recharged.

sempena bulan Ramadhan mubarak, sama-samalah kita saling mengingati sesama kita

i heart you...

sekali sekala jiwang kan... apa salahnya.

to those people out there, i heart you.

random entry 129182190

OK, enough about negative rantings.

life has been good for me. and i would like to officially announce that i am a slacker, and also a great procrastinator.

but i also tidak mudah untuk menggelabah. i am cool.

saya tidak lagi mempunyai stamina yang tinggi, dalam erti kata lain, saya sekarang kurang fit dalam aktiviti sukan badminton.

main tadi pun, menjadi lubuk yang berjaya.

so, this is like the longest stay for the past few months since i last moved to Sabah. approximately 6 days saya di Subang Jaya bersama keluarga. esok akan pulang ke Kota Kinabalu yang dirindui.

ya, kini KK adalah seperti kampung halaman saya. kenapa?

saya berasa lebih tenang di sana.

saya kurang melakukan aktiviti sosial di sana.

maka, saya lebih berjimat di sana.

email

so, Line is pissed off because there is no certainty on when the interview session will be held here. the previous attempt, which was called on at the last minute, was cancelled at the last minute as well.

i even told them, perhaps they might want to have ONE big session, whereby all the OPUs in the other side of Malaysia will be able to nominate and participate in the recruitment drive. Just let us know the date, and we will be more than happy to assist. you talk about cost-efficient measurement, so lets do a big one, and then reported that you have serviced the customer over here!

but till now, there is no news about it.

so, my Boss shoot an email to HQ, which in turn fwd it to Center.

and suddenly, my ex-SM sent me an email, requesting me to be their eyes and ears on latest happening in Line.

funny. because when they introduce new things, do they even bother to inform us upfront? when they implement new rulings, did they communicate with us?

i dont remember seeing any email coming from their side.

even an email sent much earlier, requesting talking points so that i could advise Line accordingly, was replied by a phone-call.

like seriously, u expect me to take verbatim of our phone call ke? and the conversation ended with, "ala Mil, ko dulu kan kat sini. tau2 je la how things work"

boy, am i happy to hear that! nothing changes. policy and new rules, yes. but style of work? nah. sorry syeena, u know i love u, but professionalism wise, this is bullshit.

when i read that email, i thought they might be thinking that i'm not doing my job.

so, i replied back the email to the now GM,

'with the new rulings and requirements introduced time after time, we are unable to provide consistent reasoning with Line"

the keyword is: Consistency.

yg aku panas tu, masa hangpa bagi aku M3, takde plak hantar email ke phone call ke. tau2 je dah termaktub dalam HRIS.

lantak pi laa.. kalo nasib aku baik, hari Jumaat ni aku dpt jumpa dia. time tu nak luahkan semua.

tengok lah apa respons dan jawapan dia.

ACD

i wonder why people dreaded so much about their ACD assessment. i mean, the purpose of the baseline assessment is for us to know where we are right now. i mean, for someone who has been in the industry for like 3 years ++, you should be able to answer some questions comfortably kan?

not!

not if you spent your precious 3 years in that same old department, doing the same shit over and over again. especially if you're at the HQ. i mean, performance wise, you might be seen as competent. but knowledge wise?

yo, kalau u have been doing the same thing for past 5 years, kalo tak excellent jugak, tak tau la kot. samada ko bodoh atau malas. i chose item no.1.

luckily for me, although PPA wise is not that menyakinkan, in the span of 2 years ++, i've covered 3 areas in my roles as a HR practitioners.

and if all goes as plan, upon my 3rd year, i'll be given a new responsibility.

so, i had my ACD assessment yesterday. before that, weeks before the assessment date, i asked my boss, "Boss, agak2 kalau dtg berlenggang boleh tak?"..he replied, "ko ni..bwk la dokumen ke bahan bacaan sikit. tunjuk depa hang ada some effort"

so, the day before the assessment, felt that i needed a half-day session to recap what i've gained throughout my colourful 2 years of experience. instead, i had to attend an audit discussion with my boss throughout the evening. OK, fine. i'll do that after office hour. But then, when the clock ticked 4.00pm, i realised that i wanted to watch Setem. then off me go to the cinema.

Came back home, decided that i should start studying. Sat in the living hall, turned on the TV, and sub-consciously inserted The Matrix DVD.

and i spent the night watching The Matrix, Matrix: Reloaded and surfing the net simultaneously.

owh, we just activated our internet access at home.

there goes my hope to study for the assessment.

next morning, came early to the office, skimmed through the manuals, and had a good breakfast.

went through the assessment, and the assessors feedbacks were encouraging. i validated my self-assessment on my gaps, and i will need to chart my career in order to close the gaps.

later today, before the assessors left the building, one of them came to me and asked, "dah berapa lama kau di E1?" i replied, "nak masuk 3 tahun dah".. he said, "OK la tu. Boleh progress dah".

Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah.

ye, apakah salah saya?

been a long time since i last updated my blog here.

customary updates:
1. our house, is now wi-fi area. nice!
2. i am a proud owner of 40" LCD TV, and a standard home theatre system. nice!

now, to latest ranting.
for those who care shit about this, i am in extreme pissed off mode on the implementation of this Forced-Ranking system.

yes, i believe aku memang patut laa kena, but still, if i remember, the superior is supposed to share with the staffs, on their final rating.

but nooo..

i got to know about my rating, not from my ex-superior, but from the system.

so, since we are the victim of this force-ranking system, the effect to us?

1. increment is 4% only, the same with those of rating 4
2. permanent record in our CV, which might dampen our progression opportunities
3. might affect bonus payout
4. demoralise gila2 kot as if macam tak kerja langsung last FY

i love the company, i am passionate about my job. but these thing? it made me thinking of my future in the Company. it nearly made me lose my faith in the system.

to make things worse, there are people who i truly believe does not belong in this group. but was victimised due to this shitty thing of wanting to maintain reputation.

bladi fark. just because aku di-transfer-out, ko suka suki letak aku kat the bottom 10%? dah la ko menyusahkan aku before my transfer movement. oi enchik, other manager, altho belum finalised, dah share dgn staff tau what's happening. dah kat EDC ke, dah confirm ke, apa ke. but ko? blah la wei. tak nak bagitau pulak.

and all these while, while others are kutuk-king ko, aku tak join pun. i hold on to my principles of not talking thrash about others. do unto others, what you want others unto you.

now i realised, i should just joined the pack.

anyway, all i need is a proper explanation. why i am in the bottom 10%? why am i victimised?

my target, to put it bluntly, is to hold a position whereby i will be able to tembak my ex-boss. ko tgk ah nnt.

tapi lepas discuss with ummi and abuya, it's best not to have this dendam thingy. so, all i want to achieve is, to hold a position much higher than him, then show him who's the boss.

eleh, takat tau pasal ambik orang kerja je, tinggi manalah ko boleh pergi.

ok, saya sgt pissed off.

mungkin dgn manager, mungkin juga dengan senior manager.

but as they say, hadapi dengan senyuman :)

update dari KK - June 2009

June is here, and soon will be replaced with July.
So, what was in store during month of June? nothing much, i'm afraid.
well, except from the Manukan Escapade, and also Labuan trip, life is pretty much the same.

Can't say that Manukan dissapointed me, coz it was an escapade full of sun, sea, sand, and girls. hehehehehe. you can view some of the pictures at my facebook photos. some of it je.

and Labuan? my goodness. Labuan is nice, although you can easily get bored of it. why? coz there's nothing much of places where you can go. However, since Labuan is a free duty island, it is the best place to buy car, car, liquor, cigarettes, car and chocolates.
and i bought chocolates as souvenirs for my colleagues, and Gucci sunglasses for myself. freaking rm200. i seriously need to start paying my credit card bills.

*sigh*

so far, June is the month where i have no meeting in KL, but tonnes of work to be done in the office. It's already been 2 months i'm here, and i'm expecting myself to be able to perform the job autonomously, with me being the section head as well.

on the other note, my apartment is now fully occupied. 2 other tenants are with me now. all of us work with PETRONAS, so no problem there.

as of now, i plan to get myself a bicycle.

fingers crossed!

beautiful monday

so today, lots of things happened. Interesting things indeed.

First, the boss will be away to KL for the rest of the week. And guess what? I'll be the acting manager. Perghh.. Too much responsibilities! My own tasks pun tak settle2 lagi.

Secondly, i saw with my very own eyes, rm500 disappeared into thin air in about an hour. Thanks to the slot machine. As part of my localisation effort, followed my friends to a club, and watched them trying their luck on the machine. Crazy man. Rm100 in just like in less than 10 minutes. But i must admit, the excitement when you won is what drove greed into turbo mode. Although at the end of the day, u won nothing.

Tu je la kot.

Oh, another note. My sidekick, she told me that it seems that i like ladies who are small or petite, and cakap lemah lembut.
So, if you're one of them, and still single, just drop me your number k.

post rambang

(post hari ini boleh diabaikan)

Hari ini saya mula memasak. Apa yang saya masak? Daging burger dan dramet ayam ayamas.
Acapkali kita lihat orang memasak ayam goreng secara deep fried. Maka saya mengambil inisiatif untuk tidak menggunakan deep fried method,sekaligus mengurangkan penggunaan minyak goreng dalam masakan.
Hasilnya? Boleh laa dibuat makan. Sememangnya tidak boleh lawan deep fried, kerana cara tersebut konferm membuatkan dramet masak secara total. Cara kurang minyak menghasilkan dramet yg just nice, tapi at expense of kulit ayam terlebih goreng, hampir ke tahap hangit kerana terlalu lama dibiarkan di atas minyak. Nasib baik saya menggunakan prinsip masak menggunakan haba terperangkap.
Oklah, nak masak maggi goreng pulak.
Lapar la pulak.. Hish..

blast from the past: jus belimbing

and i told her that my blood pressure was within the borderline to hypertension.
Then she said, "sayang, you better minum jus belimbing. It might help to lower your blood pressure"

and i must say, the belimbing juice is quite good.

blast from the past!

Sabah, the perfect square - Island Trip part 2

time flies really fast.
felt like it was just last month when Barack Obama was elected as the 1st African American President of the United States.
felt like it was last week when Pak Lah stepped down, paving the way for Najib to take over as the Prime Minister of Malaysia.

and, without i realising it, it has been 2 months since my first day reporting for duty here in Kota Kinabalu office. i feel like i've been here for such a long time. and my goodness, it's only two months je. meaning, i am enjoying my time here. i mean, i got to maintain a healthy lifestyle (morning walk to the office), although my diet programs is in haywire. i'm currently in i-want-to-eat-everything mode. i am in stress? i don't know. maybe because of the job. i am yet to deliver any groundbreaking results to the unit, department and the company. hopefully, i've learnt everything that i need to know. now, it's more on learning to walk on the ropes. sorry, let me rephrase that. now is the time to walk on the rope.

anyway, i just came back from a short-and-sweet trip to Pulau Manukan, with several people from the office.

back during my first 2 weeks in KK, one of my PIPErs, Rani, advised me not to mingle with Executives only. when he said executives, he said not with the Semenanjung lads only. mix around with the locals as well. Because based on his observation, he saw that most Semenanjung staffs, especially the young ones, only mingles among themselves only. well, that was from his observation lah.

so now, i can safely declare that, i am creating a bond with all Malaysians. i don't know. but i find it funny when we differentiate ourselves by states of origins, when we are all Malaysians! for me, the purpose of me asking people's hometown is because i want to know more about them. i want to connect with them. not for assabiyah thingy. yezzaa! lama tak guna ayat tu.

ok, back to the original report.
so, went to Pulau Manukan, and had a wonderful time over there. and yeap, went there with my Sabahan friends. note to myself: need to brush up Sabahan dialect and slang.

and when you are on island, blessed with sandy beaches and calm seas, you are suppose to go snorkeling. and that's what i did. snorkel. burnt myself.

for the record, damn it i hate to admit this, when i snorkeled previously, i always wear the life jacket. although i know how to swim. i dont know why. maybe because i lack the confidence to snorkel without it. but today, i swam freely without the life jacket. it is another great achievement for me! woohooo.. for most of you, maybe this is nothing. but for me, considering the fact that i only started to learn how to swim in 2000, this is a big step for me. hehehehe. basking in self-glory.

we were on Manukan from 8am till 2pm.
snorkel + makan kudap-kudap + tidur tepi pantai sambil berjemur + snorkel (repeat again and again and again)

and as usual, when i get the opportunity to sun bath, i do it without applying any sun blocks.

and now, i suda terbakar.

hahahahhaa

but i loike.

ok, my entry here macam dah jadi kucar kacir. must be sebab penat or something. i think the only thing that makes me awake now is the Red Bull that i had earlier this evening.

roger and out!

would you?

would you prefer of me saying it to you directly,
or would you rather know it indirectly?

would you come with me, if it's warung and not the coffee shop?

would you walk with me to that place, when i parked my car few blocks away?

would you lecture me when i did something wrong, and then if i acted negatively to your concern would you give time for me to cool off first, then allowing me back to your embrace once i've realised that you were right?

would you just knock my head, not because you like to do it, but because you want to make sure that i'm thinking rationally?

would you be my source of positiveness, when i've ran out of positive thoughts to cheer me up?

would you?

note: the after-effect of attending weddings :)

always be my baby..

we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you'll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of time

you'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
girl don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
girl don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)
and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be..

gadget freak

on way back to her house, shasha planned to get herself a GPS for her gadget collections.

and i, shall not, must not, and will not lose to her. OK laa, dia ada Jazz, aku ada Waja je. tapi keta aku lagi macho kot. muahahahahaha

touch-phone: checked.

GPS: checked.

Gaming rig: checked. although seldomly used.

Game console: checked. Hurmm... have to upgrade it.

Laptop: why go for laptop, when you can have a cheapo ones, and much more lighter? I opt for netbook. checked.

Bluetooth headset: Checked.

LCD TV: hurmmm

Blu-Ray player: hurmm...

PDA or iPhone: nope. am sticking with my trusted XpressMusic. plus, i do not want to have anything associated with Apple, be it iPod, iPod touch, iPhone, Macbook, MacAir. regardless of how cool i will be with those gadgets. sorry.

Digital Frame: yezzaa!! checked.

ok. i have a confession to make as well.

i'm a spendthrift. on food and gadgets.

tinggi-tinggi gunung kinabalu

am i the girl-friend guy type?
i think so.

but, as "Pistol" Peter in "I Love You Man", i believe someday i will find that someone.

till that day, i'll always be there for my girlfriends. and the lads too. dont want to go through what Peter's ordeal before his big day.

anyway, bila laa korang nak datang Sabah ni? tak sabar nak tunjuk sumandak2 kat korang ni. :)

boomerang

to some, karma is a bitch.
to others, karma is unavoidable.

Me? I say that life is like a boomerang.

introvert entry

she was full of negative emotions, when she saw my name appears online in her IM's contacts.
And we chatted for good, while i tried to know more what happened thzt caused her to be full of anger.

then she told me, "i feel much better now i've talked with you. Tadi rasa macam nak explode je". Then we continue chatting, till a point whereby i shared with her why i am a truly a sanguine.

sometimes, i couldnt care less on the fact that i'm still single. Yet, sometimes i feel like i'm a loser for not having a gf. Yes, we sanguine tend to overly express ourselves.

at the end of our conversation, she told me, "i feel comfortable talking to you." and as parting gift, i gave her an advise, " share with your bf on your situation now. He should give you support. At least, that's what i'll do if my gf share with me on her 'situation'".

....

It is sad to realise that we never know how badly we miss each other. Well, at least i miss you that bad. Do you?

how to deal with lack of sugar

so she told me, "i was on mc yesterday. Went to see my doctor. Apparently i'm low on sugar"
So i told her, "meaning u ni kurang sweet la?"
"yeap. I sweet and sour"

So she wanted to have the proboscis monkey teddy bear, and i managed to get one for her.

So she told me, "u dont have to be sweet to me. Taula i ni low on sugar"

Hahaha..my dear, whoever told you you'll be getting it for free? I tolong belikan je.. Hehe

meetings and happenings

12/5 - kuala lumpur convention centre
13/5 - tower 1, PeTT
14/5 - tower 1, PeTT
15/5 - sko, miri
16/5 - sko, miri
17/5 - sko, miri
18/5 - tower 1, PeTT

while at tower 1, must visit level 26, 62 and 63.

high on sugar

i'm high on sugar.
Drank 4 cans of assorted carbonated drinks, 1 can of livita honey, 1 bottle 1.5l of ice-cream soda carbonated drinks.

now i miss the nagging and lecturing. Haha

Ok, tomorrow is plain water only. And glasses of milo ping ;p

who is your "perfect match" quiz result

my facebook quiz result:

Azamil completed the quiz "Who is your "perfect match"?" with the result Ambitious & Driven

Your perfect match is someone who values success, is a natural born leader and constantly works hard to improve themselves and their life. They will deeply appreciate your ability to make them feel special. This type of person loves admiration and your giving, loving and wonderfully kind nature will make you their perfect mate. Your match also enjoys biking, hiking, working out and eating healthy--taking care of their body is a priority to them and they always look their best.This person will always protect you and keep your best interests at heart- they really want to go the extra mile to make you happy. The top traits they are looking for in a mate is loyalty and trustworthiness.They love a good challenge and are visionaries. This can hinder them when falling in love because they are very driven to find "the one" and won't settle for less. However, once they fall in love with you, they will be very affectionate and are enthusiastic about the relationship

it's tuesday

it's only tuesday, but we already make some plan to either go to Sandakan, Ranau, or Pulau Tiga.
well, since it's gonna be a long weekend kan?

but then, Pulau Tiga depends on the total cost. with my current financial situation, don't think it is feasible yet to splurge on tourism.

anyway, hope i'll get the chance to go to Labuan.

oh ya, after long hiatus since 1999, i'll be representing SBO for hockey! yeah! it's all due they do not have sufficient team-mate, so i offer myself to become the devoted bench-warmer. hehehe. janji dapat pegi miri! pastu dapat jersey free! hohohoho

but rest assured, it wont be a free-ride. i'll ensure i'll contribute to the team!

chayo2x!

update here and there

well, so far it has been a month of me in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.
yes, i do have the periodic moments when i found myself missing home.
and as much as i'm not saying this, there are a list of people who i missed a lot while i'm here. so those people who i spent my time with during my previous 3+1 weekend, do know that you were in that list too.

so, what have i been up too?
i've done whitewater rafting at Sungai Padas. it was that damn good! furthermore, we went through rapid Level 3-4. and had a blast with the paddle-mates. :) Wendy, Stephanie, and Janet. hahahahaha. :)

been snorkelling at Sapi Island. thanks Zura for the invitation :) will go there at least once a month for my underwater escapade.

people suggested for me to go climb Mt Kinabalu and go diving. all i can say is, i'm targetting Mount Kinabalu by end of this year. thus, i will need to prepare physically and mentally.

next in line will be diving. for this, Nodi my dear, i am waiting for you, OK? lets do that together. if not this year, then early next year ke? so start saving the moolah, or yet, find a rich boyfriend! hehehe

on another note, i accidentally extended my Labour Day weekend, no thanks to my faulty biological clock. the flight was scheduled to depart by 9.30am, and i woke up that morning, at 8.00 am. and i only registered that i am bloody late, while i was having my shower. but things happen for reasons kan? turned out to be, i managed to meet up with Ummi and Abuya who were at Terengganu during the weekend.

financially, i'm having a big hole in my pocket now. the supposedly rm300++ trips KK-Kl turned out to be rm1000++. no thanks to last minute changes in flught schedule, and last-minute purchase of flight ticket.

however, life is good now. am in no hurry to find that someone yet. i believe i need to work hard for it, and considering how i'm behaving right now, there is no effort for it. thus, i consider it as not on top of high-priority list. don't get me wrong. there are several ladies that i'm interested in, but unless i change my behaviour, i don't think so it will ever work, at least for me. because that is the main reason for the previous break-up. i do not work hard for it. letting it go easily without ever trying to mend things back. unless i change, sampai bila-bila laa aku takde gelfren.

oh btw, i'm now a gadget freak, again.
just bought myself a netbook (i've always wanted one! Acer Aspire ONE D150.
and also, a digital photo frame (i thought frens would get me this for my farewell gift tho!), under the pretense of mu buying it as a wedding gift for a friend. hahahaha.
next in line would be Blackberry Storm. am saving my extra money, so i'm targeting to get a piece of Storm by end of this year. altho by that time, iPhone 3G v.20 dah keluar. but who cares? i hate Apple. hahahaha

oh btw Shasha, u still owe me 2 ketok kepalas from me, a date, and Chilli's for dinner. jangan ko lupa pulak.

and to GTS and Syeena, i'll be back on 13-14 may. so block your time after 6 on 13th, coz we are soo gonna go for karaoke session!

hahahahaha

Random entry #3465

Ever since people know that i'm moving out to sabah, without fail they will ask me this,
"why sabah?"
Truth be told, even i'm not too sure about it. But as mentioned in the previous post, i feel as if i'm given a new lifeline to start all over again.
Then, suddenly i think i know the answer. The answer to why i am more than willing to leave beloved ones, friendly colleagues and familiar surroundings.
To some, i told them it's because the company wants me. And it is best for me to respond positively, for you might not get the chance again in near future. To some, it is about taking up new challenges. This new job is something that i have never done before. So i need to learn, unlearn and relearn. To some, it is about taking myself to the next level. To some, it is about starting all over again. For throughout my years in peninsular, i've gone through some shittiest moment (although i'm not complaining, because i know there are others who face with much more challenging situation than me), and i've screwed up a lot than i ever imagined. So, it's high time for me start new.

Deep inside me, i think it's more about learning to stand on my own two feet. To be by myself. To be independent. For all this time, i envy those studying at overseas. Not because of they were there, but more on that they are lucky to be given the opportunity to be their own. The exposure they gained. Unlike me. So, this is also why i'm more than willing to be transferred here.

And i also feel that this would be the test for me, whether those feelings i felt back then is genuine or not. Also, as a measurement stick to know am i that important to the people that i'm leaving behind. Alas, putting my family aside, i realised that not all is what it may seems to be.

And truth is, i'm starting to miss home. Who doesn't? For the first time of my life, home is not a drive away. But i need to be strong. For i need to stay positive all the time. As i thought that i'm struggling adapting to new environment, others are being depressed with their current environment. I can't afford to make them worry about me, so i will have to share this positive-ness with them.

Once i told my new colleagues, that i am still in anti social mode. And she was surprised with that, considering how i behaved during our lunch session. This was when i shared with few of us, that i prefer to live alone for time being. Than he chipped in, "he just need some time alone to recharge". And i nodded my head to agree with his statement. My point is, i'm recharging. But if you need me, feel free to call me. The least i could do is to listen to your grievances.

Ok, habis dah sesi luahan hati.

to be a better man

lately i found myself much more comfortable posting entry at facebook note. maybe because it is much more accessible via my Nokia 5800 Xpressmusic (hehehe..iklan sikit phone aku ini).

so, how's Sabah?

been good for me.

seems like God has give me the chance for me to start all over again. start afresh. chance to leave behind all the not too good things behind, chance for me to bring along with me into this new chapter those that matters to me, and also chance for me to rediscover who i am.

if all is good, i'll be living in a shoestring budget. which means i will have to cut down my entertainment expenses. my take-home salary is half of my salary. and i will incur additional rm1k for the house rental fee, extra rm200 for the phone bill, and what's left would be my survival cost.

and lets keep Ummi and Abuya out of the equation.

lets hope that i'll be getting a house-mate by next month..huhu

till we meet again

this is so gonna be a public post, so it's best for me not to divulge any critical information or data here.

anyway, i'm done packing for now. hopefully everything that i need already in that bags, boxes and bag.

the final scene of this particular chapter, ended with a bang! thanks to my loved ones (the ablyns and our extended members).

and now, i'm signing off, as i'll be needing a good rest.

and for the record, i really appreciate you people who were there physically and spiritually.

i never, i repeat, i never, expected to have that kind of party.

as i mentioned to those who were there,
"i never expected to see my 3 different circle of friends, to be here sharing a long table"
"i've tried my best to separate these 3 entities, but tonight, the walls collapsed right in front of my eyes"

somehow, Syeena managed to pull it off. i've accidentally placed her inside all of my circle of friends.

thank you lads, and till we meet again...

i woke up today around 3.00 am

woke up early in the morning today, around 3.30 am to be exact (then tidur sekejap, pastu bangun balik). which is something i'd never do on my working days.

and i spent today's 12 hours with the Ishak's clan. basically kinda like my extended family too hahahaha

i was having sleep-deprived-syndrom, Lan was having i'm-still-adjusting-to-local-time-so-i-did-not-have-any-sleep-last-night, and Alia was having i'm-jet-lagged.

and i never knew that a sleep-deprived person would act hyperly and as if they are experiencing sugar-high syndrom.

crazy people, they are.

hahahahahaa

Our Last Meeting - Ms Stalker and i

after weeks of not seeing each other, apart from the occasional hello here and there, we met and headed to our favourite fruit stall.

on way back to the office, we decided to find a place to sit, as it was still early, and lo and behold! we went to the same place we sat during our first meeting. (the fact that it only struck me on my way back home tonight, meant that even she did not realised about it!)

so we talked on how's life been treating us and everything, and after couple of minutes for pleasant intros, she asked me directly, "So Azamil, be honest here, do you really like her?"

" You know what, Azamil, you are just too transparent. and you are just too nice "
" I'm sure she already know by now that you like her, given how transparent you are. So she basically either pretending that she does not know, or she wants to see how far you will go "
" If she tell you that she likes you too, i'm pretty sure you akan melompat, kan? it's ok to be teruja "

and then she said something that i did not expect to come from her.

" I decided that i cannot like you, i mean to be more than friends, because of two things. "
" i know that i cannot like you, when i know that you have 6 sisters. well, i dah bagitau you dari dulu lagi kan yang it's my personal preference. but katakanlah if we are an item or what, that will be the secondary thing lah"

which leads to her main point,

" you have lots of girl-friends. and you are nice to all of them. saying that, i see that you give all of your girl-friends same amount of attention and nice-ties. it's hard to see if there would be differentiation and special attention "

" plus, nanti sure you suruh i control my words and perangai. kan? haa.. see! anyway, even my boyfriend sekarang pun dah hint2 for me to control.. hahaha "

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i guess people can easily read me like an open book, since Ms Stalker and Ms Jog managed to get kinda accurate impression about me.