At the Funeral

At my funeral,
As the undertaker slowly lowered my corpse,
As the people on the ground above reciting yasin and ummulkitab for me,
I wonder,
Who shall be at my funeral?

Of course not you, beloved best friends.
It kills me to know I am making u sad, more if you cried.
For sure not my family members,
For our love is so strong, i'm afraid they could not accept what has been written by the Almighty. And I love them.

How about those who i've fallen in love to?
My wife?
Please don't attend my funeral. For I need you at my death bed. And then,as the old saying goes, till death do us part. And part we must.
My children?
They should be with my ex-wife.remind her that the living should continue living. And let the dead to rest.

My enemies? I need to them at my death bed too, for I seek their forgiveness for whatever I might done that caused the hatred.
My ex-girlfriends? At the death bed as well. For I need them to know that I am sorry for my misdoings and misgivings.
After all, we are all humans.

Then who shall I invite to my funeral?

Those who praised me a lot, I guess. To serve as reminder that we are all humans, indeed.
Those who wanted to see me dead, perhaps.

I'd love to have the angels at my funeral. Bringing me good news from heaven.

And for that, I shall live my life as how I should be living.
To always count my blessings.
To always stay to the true path, lest be straying away from it.

To gain the blessings from the Almighty.
For me to have a wonderful life in the afterlife.

Remember Death

amazingly, those words flowed into my mind, as i was waiting for the 9.30 show of I am Legend at TGC KLCC just now. as i was being escalated by the escalator, ideas came flowing to me. who shall i invite to my funeral? i mean, we have long lists of invited people to our housewarming party, birthday party, post-graduation party, weekend party, and the list goes on. but do we actually have a list of invited guests to our own funeral?

you told me that you were uncomfortable asyik going out with me, and when i've apologised you told me not to merajuk? then all of a sudden you said that we shall meet up coz you want to clarify some matters with me? huh?

remember the past entry about the +ve and -ve thingy? well, i was having a hunch that not-too-good news are coming. and i was kinda expecting this to happen. entahla, basic instinct kot? hehehe

well, i just deleted some statement that sounded negative.
i believe the way to go now is to always maintain this positive mindset and thinking.

well, it helps la kan?