who is your "perfect match" quiz result

my facebook quiz result:

Azamil completed the quiz "Who is your "perfect match"?" with the result Ambitious & Driven

Your perfect match is someone who values success, is a natural born leader and constantly works hard to improve themselves and their life. They will deeply appreciate your ability to make them feel special. This type of person loves admiration and your giving, loving and wonderfully kind nature will make you their perfect mate. Your match also enjoys biking, hiking, working out and eating healthy--taking care of their body is a priority to them and they always look their best.This person will always protect you and keep your best interests at heart- they really want to go the extra mile to make you happy. The top traits they are looking for in a mate is loyalty and trustworthiness.They love a good challenge and are visionaries. This can hinder them when falling in love because they are very driven to find "the one" and won't settle for less. However, once they fall in love with you, they will be very affectionate and are enthusiastic about the relationship

it's tuesday

it's only tuesday, but we already make some plan to either go to Sandakan, Ranau, or Pulau Tiga.
well, since it's gonna be a long weekend kan?

but then, Pulau Tiga depends on the total cost. with my current financial situation, don't think it is feasible yet to splurge on tourism.

anyway, hope i'll get the chance to go to Labuan.

oh ya, after long hiatus since 1999, i'll be representing SBO for hockey! yeah! it's all due they do not have sufficient team-mate, so i offer myself to become the devoted bench-warmer. hehehe. janji dapat pegi miri! pastu dapat jersey free! hohohoho

but rest assured, it wont be a free-ride. i'll ensure i'll contribute to the team!

chayo2x!

update here and there

well, so far it has been a month of me in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.
yes, i do have the periodic moments when i found myself missing home.
and as much as i'm not saying this, there are a list of people who i missed a lot while i'm here. so those people who i spent my time with during my previous 3+1 weekend, do know that you were in that list too.

so, what have i been up too?
i've done whitewater rafting at Sungai Padas. it was that damn good! furthermore, we went through rapid Level 3-4. and had a blast with the paddle-mates. :) Wendy, Stephanie, and Janet. hahahahaha. :)

been snorkelling at Sapi Island. thanks Zura for the invitation :) will go there at least once a month for my underwater escapade.

people suggested for me to go climb Mt Kinabalu and go diving. all i can say is, i'm targetting Mount Kinabalu by end of this year. thus, i will need to prepare physically and mentally.

next in line will be diving. for this, Nodi my dear, i am waiting for you, OK? lets do that together. if not this year, then early next year ke? so start saving the moolah, or yet, find a rich boyfriend! hehehe

on another note, i accidentally extended my Labour Day weekend, no thanks to my faulty biological clock. the flight was scheduled to depart by 9.30am, and i woke up that morning, at 8.00 am. and i only registered that i am bloody late, while i was having my shower. but things happen for reasons kan? turned out to be, i managed to meet up with Ummi and Abuya who were at Terengganu during the weekend.

financially, i'm having a big hole in my pocket now. the supposedly rm300++ trips KK-Kl turned out to be rm1000++. no thanks to last minute changes in flught schedule, and last-minute purchase of flight ticket.

however, life is good now. am in no hurry to find that someone yet. i believe i need to work hard for it, and considering how i'm behaving right now, there is no effort for it. thus, i consider it as not on top of high-priority list. don't get me wrong. there are several ladies that i'm interested in, but unless i change my behaviour, i don't think so it will ever work, at least for me. because that is the main reason for the previous break-up. i do not work hard for it. letting it go easily without ever trying to mend things back. unless i change, sampai bila-bila laa aku takde gelfren.

oh btw, i'm now a gadget freak, again.
just bought myself a netbook (i've always wanted one! Acer Aspire ONE D150.
and also, a digital photo frame (i thought frens would get me this for my farewell gift tho!), under the pretense of mu buying it as a wedding gift for a friend. hahahaha.
next in line would be Blackberry Storm. am saving my extra money, so i'm targeting to get a piece of Storm by end of this year. altho by that time, iPhone 3G v.20 dah keluar. but who cares? i hate Apple. hahahaha

oh btw Shasha, u still owe me 2 ketok kepalas from me, a date, and Chilli's for dinner. jangan ko lupa pulak.

and to GTS and Syeena, i'll be back on 13-14 may. so block your time after 6 on 13th, coz we are soo gonna go for karaoke session!

hahahahaha

Random entry #3465

Ever since people know that i'm moving out to sabah, without fail they will ask me this,
"why sabah?"
Truth be told, even i'm not too sure about it. But as mentioned in the previous post, i feel as if i'm given a new lifeline to start all over again.
Then, suddenly i think i know the answer. The answer to why i am more than willing to leave beloved ones, friendly colleagues and familiar surroundings.
To some, i told them it's because the company wants me. And it is best for me to respond positively, for you might not get the chance again in near future. To some, it is about taking up new challenges. This new job is something that i have never done before. So i need to learn, unlearn and relearn. To some, it is about taking myself to the next level. To some, it is about starting all over again. For throughout my years in peninsular, i've gone through some shittiest moment (although i'm not complaining, because i know there are others who face with much more challenging situation than me), and i've screwed up a lot than i ever imagined. So, it's high time for me start new.

Deep inside me, i think it's more about learning to stand on my own two feet. To be by myself. To be independent. For all this time, i envy those studying at overseas. Not because of they were there, but more on that they are lucky to be given the opportunity to be their own. The exposure they gained. Unlike me. So, this is also why i'm more than willing to be transferred here.

And i also feel that this would be the test for me, whether those feelings i felt back then is genuine or not. Also, as a measurement stick to know am i that important to the people that i'm leaving behind. Alas, putting my family aside, i realised that not all is what it may seems to be.

And truth is, i'm starting to miss home. Who doesn't? For the first time of my life, home is not a drive away. But i need to be strong. For i need to stay positive all the time. As i thought that i'm struggling adapting to new environment, others are being depressed with their current environment. I can't afford to make them worry about me, so i will have to share this positive-ness with them.

Once i told my new colleagues, that i am still in anti social mode. And she was surprised with that, considering how i behaved during our lunch session. This was when i shared with few of us, that i prefer to live alone for time being. Than he chipped in, "he just need some time alone to recharge". And i nodded my head to agree with his statement. My point is, i'm recharging. But if you need me, feel free to call me. The least i could do is to listen to your grievances.

Ok, habis dah sesi luahan hati.

to be a better man

lately i found myself much more comfortable posting entry at facebook note. maybe because it is much more accessible via my Nokia 5800 Xpressmusic (hehehe..iklan sikit phone aku ini).

so, how's Sabah?

been good for me.

seems like God has give me the chance for me to start all over again. start afresh. chance to leave behind all the not too good things behind, chance for me to bring along with me into this new chapter those that matters to me, and also chance for me to rediscover who i am.

if all is good, i'll be living in a shoestring budget. which means i will have to cut down my entertainment expenses. my take-home salary is half of my salary. and i will incur additional rm1k for the house rental fee, extra rm200 for the phone bill, and what's left would be my survival cost.

and lets keep Ummi and Abuya out of the equation.

lets hope that i'll be getting a house-mate by next month..huhu

till we meet again

this is so gonna be a public post, so it's best for me not to divulge any critical information or data here.

anyway, i'm done packing for now. hopefully everything that i need already in that bags, boxes and bag.

the final scene of this particular chapter, ended with a bang! thanks to my loved ones (the ablyns and our extended members).

and now, i'm signing off, as i'll be needing a good rest.

and for the record, i really appreciate you people who were there physically and spiritually.

i never, i repeat, i never, expected to have that kind of party.

as i mentioned to those who were there,
"i never expected to see my 3 different circle of friends, to be here sharing a long table"
"i've tried my best to separate these 3 entities, but tonight, the walls collapsed right in front of my eyes"

somehow, Syeena managed to pull it off. i've accidentally placed her inside all of my circle of friends.

thank you lads, and till we meet again...

i woke up today around 3.00 am

woke up early in the morning today, around 3.30 am to be exact (then tidur sekejap, pastu bangun balik). which is something i'd never do on my working days.

and i spent today's 12 hours with the Ishak's clan. basically kinda like my extended family too hahahaha

i was having sleep-deprived-syndrom, Lan was having i'm-still-adjusting-to-local-time-so-i-did-not-have-any-sleep-last-night, and Alia was having i'm-jet-lagged.

and i never knew that a sleep-deprived person would act hyperly and as if they are experiencing sugar-high syndrom.

crazy people, they are.

hahahahahaa

Our Last Meeting - Ms Stalker and i

after weeks of not seeing each other, apart from the occasional hello here and there, we met and headed to our favourite fruit stall.

on way back to the office, we decided to find a place to sit, as it was still early, and lo and behold! we went to the same place we sat during our first meeting. (the fact that it only struck me on my way back home tonight, meant that even she did not realised about it!)

so we talked on how's life been treating us and everything, and after couple of minutes for pleasant intros, she asked me directly, "So Azamil, be honest here, do you really like her?"

" You know what, Azamil, you are just too transparent. and you are just too nice "
" I'm sure she already know by now that you like her, given how transparent you are. So she basically either pretending that she does not know, or she wants to see how far you will go "
" If she tell you that she likes you too, i'm pretty sure you akan melompat, kan? it's ok to be teruja "

and then she said something that i did not expect to come from her.

" I decided that i cannot like you, i mean to be more than friends, because of two things. "
" i know that i cannot like you, when i know that you have 6 sisters. well, i dah bagitau you dari dulu lagi kan yang it's my personal preference. but katakanlah if we are an item or what, that will be the secondary thing lah"

which leads to her main point,

" you have lots of girl-friends. and you are nice to all of them. saying that, i see that you give all of your girl-friends same amount of attention and nice-ties. it's hard to see if there would be differentiation and special attention "

" plus, nanti sure you suruh i control my words and perangai. kan? haa.. see! anyway, even my boyfriend sekarang pun dah hint2 for me to control.. hahaha "

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i guess people can easily read me like an open book, since Ms Stalker and Ms Jog managed to get kinda accurate impression about me.

pause and reflect

suddenly, the truth starts to sink in.

it's time to pause and reflect.

benci!

so we sat there by the lake, and talked about what the future might hold for us.

as if everything was planned, the nearby stall played our song.

and that was when i had to share the news.

"i just received my transfer letter. it has been confirmed, that i'll be going to Sabah"

"when will it be?"

"next week. i will need to report to my new boss on 1st april"

"benci!"

suddenly, silence engulfed us. as much as i'd like to avoid it, i couldn't resist the warmth and comfort brought by the silence to me. i felt connected to the universe, as if i was one with it. i felt calm, and the thought of why it couldn't be like this everyday came knocking on the door of my mind.

the serenity was interrupted with a failed attempt by her to hide the sobbing.

so i held her tight, and she laid her head on my shoulder, and continued crying.

not knowing what to say, what to do to console her, i just kept my mouth shut, and gazed straight to the office building at the horizon, beautifully lit as if to remind others that it is the symbol of this blessed nation.

while we were there, the radio at nearby stall finished playing our song.

and continued with another song, the one that used to be "our song" in my previous relationship.