....Right Girl in Sabah.

i'm gulping down a pot of emotional cocktail.

i feel like crying.
i feel like shouting.
i feel like laughing.
i feel like sighing.
i feel like singing.
i feel like thanking everyone.
i feel like depressed.
i feel like i am full of love.
i feel like i have no love.
i feel like a loser.
i feel like a winner.

people around me are getting hitched or engaged. some are courting or in the process of getting to know each other.

me? i'm happy for them. lets pray for the best and happy undertakings. always know, that i will always be here for you guys.

went out with Syeena, Ilya, and Is to Look Out Point after our karaoke session tonight. well, one is excited about what will happen, one is enjoying the moment, and one is recovering.

and while they talked with each other, i silently went out of the group, and stood there in the dark. then it hit me.

if all goes as plan, i'll be starting a new life. all by myself.

am i ready?
am i gonna miss them all?
are they gonna miss me?

sent Syeena back home, and along the way she felt troubled with the latest development about our friend. gave her a long lecture along the way back to her house. hopefully, she'll remember it.

she said she won't survive in the office without me. oh, how i wish she is lying. perhaps it's time for me to let her be on her own? i ought to make her see, that her statement is false.

all i could do now, is to stop interfering in her office/social life, go and sit down at the touchline, and stop asking her questios. Because obviously she is not comfortable sharing all these with me.

oh yea, Man Utd vs Inter Milan is tonight. instead of watching it like a true Man Utd fan, i'm gonna hit the bed, and pray that we win the match.

p/s: had a wonderful day today. Kudin and Alin gave me a Barney (hurmm.. the last time i received Barney for my birthday, was like 2 years ago. Pijah gave it to me), and JC gave a slim tie. am so gonna wear it tomorrow. For those who texted, emailed, wished, and face-booked your birthday wish to me, THANK YOU very much!!

p-p/s: 4 people wished for me to find the Right Girl in Sabah.