...always losing my line of thought....

"Did I ever tell you I was struck by lightning seven times?

Once when I was in the field, just tending to my cows.
Once when I was just sittin' in my truck just minding my own business.
Once when I was repairing a leak on the roof.
Once I was just crossing the road to get the mail.
Once, I was walking my dog down the road.

Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive."

---Mr Daws to Benjamin, in "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"---

Su sent me a wonderfully written poem, through email, last Monday. The poem written by Brain Andrew Chalker, was about the people surrounding us, and the purpose of their existence. I must say, during the early days when i first saw her, it was for Reason. As we got to know each other better, it became Season. And now, with things happening there and then, will i ever be considered as Lifetime? i'm afraid i do not have the answer for that.

“Reason, Season, Lifetime”

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

— A poem by Brian Andrew "Drew" Chalker

that particular email, together with a little conversation i had with my counterpart in one of the OPU, set the tone for the day.

i remembered during the first week of 2009, i kept telling myself that, "She is the one. I must work hard to get her". but now, doubts are surrounding me, like bees surrounding the full-bloom flowers, like flies surrounding piles of rubbish, like people crammed up in the moshpit and like virus and worms hogging up Server's system resources.

and now, as the date of my transfer looming nearer and nearer, i found myself repeating the same questions over and over again.

will they miss me?
will i miss them?

and, am i behaving like the old Malay proverb says,
"Kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah di depan mata tak nampak"?

i was playfully asking Wawa to find me a girlfriend, when Nabil who overheard the conversation asked me, "Mil, ko penah ada girlfriend tak?". When i replied yes, and asked him why did he asked that question, he told us, "takdela, aku ada kawan dia tak penah ada girlfriend. kitorang ingat dia gay!"

ROTFLOL!

i'm lucky to be alive.