good day, ladies and gentlemen. i am now reclaiming back http://zamiliz.blogspot.com as my rightful entity after a month of "couldn't care less" on this site's well being. (draft, less than 10 words for an entry, as well as commenting do not fall under "taking care of the blog" category)
so much to tell, yet sometimes it's hard for me to pour it out in writing. yes, i have to admit. i am not good in describing things, let alone describing people, using words. what's with my limited vocabularies of English, that is soo not helping. and yeah, not forgetting the grammar. it's like a train wreck over here.
am so used of being turned down at the last hour, that somehow i have become immune to this thing. most of the time i managed to view this thing from the positive side (e.g have other pressing matters, unplanned outing with friends, last minute work coming in, not feeling well, had to accompany someone), but once in a while, negative vibe crept inside me. am i that dispensable? is the thing planned together can easily be override by other people's plan? they think that i am OK with this thing all the time? well, sometimes yeah. it's OK, fine. but when the thought of "people might think that plan with me is not as important as plan with others" came to me, then please, by all means, please do it over and over again. i guess these people kinda enjoy making me feel miserable like this.
but luckily, this feeling comes once in a blue moon, and it does not stay too long to cause any trouble.
lesson learned: always prepare list of back-up plans.
sorry, just have to vent this negative vibe :) will post heart warming stories in next entries k? hehe
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