Huh?

big bummer.

i mean big BUMMER


must she uttered, "yes, he's gay".
can't she just tell us that, "his love is to all, regardless of who and what you are".

and just because he has affection to his friend-then-enemy, somehow stronger than what friends have, can't she just tell us that it is only brotherly love?

and the audience, oh my God. there were silence, then followed by cheers and applauds.

wadefak?

then i guess we can safely presumed that all this while He is protecting Harry because he is a paedo-gay then?

no wonder Voldemort was afraid of him! alas, i am reconsidering to join Slytherin!

tagged by ayuni

tagged by ayuni. which ironically, my blog is not her "links" section! *hint* *hint* hehe

1. FAVORITE BREAKFAST IS: roti canai banjir dal sambal + milo ice pekat :)
   
2. THE MOVIE I’VE WATCHED MOST NUMBER OF: either The Matrix OR LotR trilogies OR The Lion King. can't remember much
   
3. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: add maths..dunno why
   
4. SPEND MY LEISURE TIME: reading. sleeping
5. WORST SMELL? unflushed toilet
6. IF I COULD HAVE ANY CAR IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Perdana V6
7. FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? food tasting a.k.a eat?
8. WHEN I WAS A KID I DREAMT OF BECOMING A: 1) Lawyer 2) Engineer 3) Accountant
9. FAVORITE COLOR/s? Green OR Red OR Black OR White
10. FAVORITE PERFORMER(S)? P Ramlee
    
11. IF I COULD REPEAT COLLEGE, I’D TAKE: I'd love to read Law
12. THREE THINGS I CAN’T FORGET BEFORE GOING TO OFFICE? wallet, checked. handphone, checked. staff ID card, checked.
    
13. FIRST THING I’LL BUY WITH MY FIRST SALARY: food. LOL. i think i bought meself new pair of shirt. i guess.
    
14. I’D LIKE TO BE REMEMBERED AS: Azamil Izzat
15. IF A BOOK WAS MADE INTO A MOVIE, WOULD YOU STILL BOTHER TO READ THE BOOK? for sure. unless the movie is like totally crap, that would force me not to read the book.
    
16. SPECIALTY IN COOKING? fried egg?
    
17. PRESENT CRUSH(ES)? am not telling. for me to drool, and for you to find out :)
    
18. FAVORITE HANG-OUT? Starbucks OR mamak bistro that is not over-crowded with people
    
19. BEST PLACE TO SHOP? have no idea. best place to loaf and have good long stroll? MidValley Megamall.
    
20. DO YOU LIKE TO WATCH PLAYS? am into plays right now :)
    
21. FAVORITE PLACE IN YOUR HOUSE? my bedroom
    
22. BEST GIFT YOU’VE RECEIVED? Grand stand ticket at Sepang watching Malaysia's 1st F1 Grand Prix Race way back in 1999.
    
23. WEIRDEST GIFT YOU’VE RECEIVED? Candle. Someone gave me because i gave her broken candle the previous years.
    
24. GIFT THAT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE AS OF THIS MOMENT? a lovely, comfortable, and loong hug from my crush(es)
    
25. WHO DO YOU WANT TO TAG? sape2 la yang rajin (read: shasha, soh cai, intan)
    
26. YAHOO OR HOTMAIL: Hotmail. Thanks to Windows Live. Yahoo a bit lame nowadays. hahaha
    
27. LEFT OR RIGHT: right-handed
28. BLACK OR WHITE: Black
29. BLACK OR BLUE PEN: Blue Pen
    
30. SANDALS OR SHOES: Shoes
    
31. COLGATE OR HAPPEE: Colgate. no other toothpaste would ever replace it :)
32. CHOPSTICKS OR SPOON AND FORK? Fork and Spoon
    
33. ROBOCOP OR RAMBO: Robocop
34. JOLLIBEE OR McD: Never taste Jollibee. and I'm Loving It. go figure
35. COKE OR PEPSI: I'm a COKE-addict
    
36. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO: The Parents
    
37. LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU: The Office Colleague
    
38. LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH: The Eldest Sister
    
39. LAST TIME I CRIED: some time ago
    
40. YOU SEE ME ALWAYS DRINKING: plain water OR milo ice + COKE
    

p ramlee the musical

on my way to istana budaya,will be watching p ramlee the musical.
oh btw,i'm typing using my dopod 838 pro hehe

edited:

for review, click here

of Raya, Work, Reflection and everything in between

it would be nice if we could replay back the past

well, this year Raya sure is different. a lot. period. not wearing songkok during 1st day of Raya. first time handing out green packets of duit raya. is declared as not eligible to receive duit raya (altho Opah Wan Bidah is the only one who gave the green packet. yeay!). visited 3 graves (Atok's in PJ, Atok's in Perak and Opah's in KL). no kuah kacang throughout 4 days of Raya. had Rendang Kerbau (seriously, it is Good! sedap gila). managed to eat Dodol on the 4th day of Raya.

but nothing beats the excitement of having the whole family members under one roof.
the 1st Raya, we gathered at my Nenek's place in PJ. and seems like everyone was there. had great time meeting with dearest cousins, menyakat makcik2 kat dapur, plus helping myself to the dishes yang terhidang. menu of the day: nasi himpit, sambal sotong, kuah lodeh, rendang kerang, ayam masak merah, rendang daging, nasi minyak, kari ayam and sayur acar.

2nd day of Raya, we gathered at Mak Ndek's place at Kampung Gajah, and had some do'a selamat to welcome Aidil Fitri, and may The Almighty blessed us all throughout the year. Menu of the day: Rendang Kerbau, Rendang Kerang, Rendang Daging, Lemang, Spaghetti, Tomyam Campur, Tempoyak and Fruit Cocktail.

not forgetting, Baskin Robbin's ice cream later that evening.

earlier today, i was in the office. yes. i am a dedicated staff. willingly not taking any Raya leaves, just to be in the office and working. unlike others. hehehe.
yela tu..kerja la sangat.

since was soo not in the mood, decided to lepak2 with Kudin and Iyra at the level below. we kinda planned to have a small raya gathering (read: makan2 kuih). well, it didn't happened as we planned. since there were lots of Kuih Raya, decided to invite those who were in the office to come and join the celebration. plus, all big-big bosses are still on vacation. hehehe. we served the guests with tea, Kuih Raya (iyra baked Kuih CornFlakes and cookies, Kudin bought some kuih and he baked a "sponge" cake, and yours truly just brought the kuih that the client gave the other day), and most importantly, Lagu-Lagu Raya. Oh yeah, had my 1st real Dodol! man, it sure feels good to have real dodol. hahahahaha. big Thanks to Iyra :)

later, after office hour, went to Najwa's crib with Shaliza. Boy, the drive to Rawang sure was worth it. we were served with Nasi Goreng, MeeHoon Goreng Basah, Rendang Limpa+Ayam (my first rendang that mixed both beef and chicken..it was dat good!), Nasi Himpit, Mini Samosa, Heart-Shaped Nuggets and Keropok Goreng.


i guess now i know why lately i kinda acted like a rebellious son. of why i kinda disobeyed my parents' words, why i decided to go against their wishes, and why sometimes i felt like directly opposing to whatever they are saying.

i am afraid.

afraid of having to live under my parents' shadows for eternity. afraid of known as "anak encik Nazlan", not as "Azamil Izzat". i guess its the feeling of wanting to be known as Me. not by someone-who-is-related-to-someone, but by my own identity and personality.

but looking back at my father, altho people back at Kampung knew him by "Lan anak Brahim", he is proud of that. and yet, most people know and acknowledge him as "Haji Nazlan". he is now living under his parents' shadow, yet he has a shadow on its own. to others, he has and stands with his own identity. but he humbly accepts when people acknowledge him with his parents' shadows.

i guess it's time for me to do the same thing.
seek shelter underneath the parents' shadows, while reaching out, so one day, i would be able to stand under my own shadow. and yet, still exists under their shadows.

it's time

salam aidil fitri

tonight marks the end of Ramadhan 1428 Hijriah.
tonight marks the beginning of Syawal, and with it a month long celebration of Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.

here's wishing all readers

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri

jikalau ada terkasar bahasa, tersinggung perasaan, dan sekelian perbuatan yang mendatangkan marah pada saya, dan juga dosa sesama kita, saya mohon maaf.

this is the least i could do.

drive safely. have a safe journey.

i'll see you later, then.

p/s: moga2 aidilfitri ini membawa seribu satu khabar indah bagi diriku

coretan hari ini

this coming AidilFitri will be a huge forward leap for me, literally.
this will be my 1st raya without Opah. we sure miss her so much.
this will be my 1st raya where instead of receiving, i will give this time around.

just finished preparing the green packets. *hint* *hint*

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tahun ni aku banyak kali berbuka puasa dengan diri sendiri. bukan kerana diriku ini anti sosial, mahupun kera sumbang, cuma kadang-kadang kerana jadual perjalanan hidup yang serba tidak menentu membuatku rasa sukar untuk menghabiskan masa berbuka dengan sahabat-sahabat yang lain. cuma beberapa keadaan sahaja di mana aku berkesempatan berbuka puasa bersama sahabat-sahabat dan keluarga tercinta.

lagi banyak makan sengsorang kot.

she once told me, after had to decline my invitation for iftar together

sori ek x dpt bebuka sama2. rasa brsalah plak

knapa rasa bersalah plak? tanya diriku

yela. ko buka sorang2. aku paham camne rasa buka sorang2. sbb aku pun selalu camtu.

sudah. tiba-tiba aku pulak yg rasa bersalah sbb buat dia tak senang hati.
dan sekarang, masing-masing terlalu sibuk. dan acapkali aku terpaksa menebalkan muka ajak dia buka puasa sama2, tapi dengan jayanya terpaksa ditolak. sibuk katanya.

aku takleh nak kata apa2.

of VWB, BBQ and everyhting in between

VWB = Volunteers Without Border.

this is what i aim to be. i mean, wouldn't it be wonderful if you could extend your helping hand literally to anyone in Malaysia, or even the world? that would be awesome. yes, there are lots of charity organisations doing that, amongst all is MERCY. well, might join them in few years time la kot. as for now, i'll just develop and harness my own capabilities, commitment, as well as the enthusiasm to do so. and yeah, if my wife permits me to do so :)

we received a request for help from one of our champions in Projek TEKAD. after a brief discussion among us, it has been decided that we will drive all the way to Ijok, Perak to answer her call. Naz sent an email to the Coaches, and received positive responses from them. in a period of two days with a short notice, fund collected is more than rm500! may ALLAH bless their souls. Alhamdulillah.

then, Saturday 6th Oct marked the day when Aizan, Asma, Cha'aint and I travelled to Ijok from Ipoh. we brought along a 'trunk' full of food as to ease their preparation for this coming raya, as well as the fund collected.

the Champion lives with her grandparents, 3 siblings and a blind aunt.
her Tok Wan earned rm300 per month, just enough to support those under his care.
the Champion's siblings are all in school.

it's not the poverty that touched me most. it's not the condition of the house they call home (it's not that bad anyway. they do have basic necessities). and for sure it's not the fact that the Champion's parent left them to live with the aging grandparents.

it's their will to fight on. to continue in making tomorrow a better day. best of all, how they always think of things positively.

earning less than rm300, while supporting a big family with schooling children. and yet, they still look at things from positive point of view.

earning rm2500 per month, while paying a small fraction for the car, and yet sometimes i questioned my motivation level.

my most important takeaway from the visit: besar jugak rupanya gaji aku...

BBQ @ JC

it was awesome. great food, great place, great host and great company! must do this more often. but where? takkan la at Master's place again? (altho i don't mind actually hehe)

alrite, gtg. dah mula pening kepala masa hantar elle balik.

better tido skrg. satgi nk bgn sahur balik.

roger and out!

s.i.g.n.i.n.g.o.f.f

yes, i....

yes, i know you are just doing your part in spreading the words of the prophet.
yes, i understand you are just fulfilling your obligation as a good muslim in reminding us all.
yes, i feel you when all you wanted to do is to ber-dakwah to others, so that they will not stray far from the straight path.
yes, i do support your mission in reminding us on the infidels' actions to destroy our religion.


but please, brothers and sisters, please.

stop spreading those stories on what people of other faith are doing in disgracing our religion.
stop forwarding those nasty rumours on what the people of other faith are planning to destroy our faith and religion.

and please, i beg you, please.

stop forwarding false hadiths; false Quranice verses that contain questionable meanings; chain-mail on bad luck if you do not spread the mail to others; and false prophecies; and not forgetting stories of "jihadist" killing people in the name of upholding the faith.

does this sounds familiar?:

Do'a malaikat Jibril menjelang Ramadhan " "Ya Allah tolong abaikan
puasa ummat Muhammad, apabila sebelum memasuki bulan Ramadhan dia
tidak melakukan hal-hal yang berikut:

* Tidak memohon maaf terlebih dahulu kepada kedua orang tuanya (jika
masih ada);
* Tidak berma'afan terlebih dahulu antara suami isteri;
* Tidak bermaafan terlebih dahulu dengan orang-orang sekitarnya.

Maka Rasulullah pun mengatakan Amiin sebanyak 3 kali. Dapatkah kita
bayangkan, yang berdo'a adalah Malaikat dan yang meng-amiinkan
adalah Rasullullah dan para sahabat, dan dilakukan pada hari Jumaat.

this is one example of messages forwarded to me, in early Ramadhan this year.

the thing is, it sounds like something is not right.

and when i asked the friend who forwarded the email to me, questioning his source, the reply that i got was,

"entah. aku dapat dari orang lain. aku forwardkan je. as a reminder to us all"

and i said to myself, "HAH?"

the funny thing is, as i received others "funny" reminders forwarded to me by my friends; when i questioned them, listed below are typical answers given:

1. ha'ah la. semacam plak bunyi dia. tapi aku forward je. sebagai peringatan
2. entah. aku forwardkan je. untuk kita beringat-ingat.
3. betul laa..member aku yg anta ni bleh dipercayai. ikut jelaa.
4. betul jugak. tapi kita buat la benda2 baik yg dia suruh. yang tak betul tu tinggalkan la
5. hehe. aku tau. ade gak few others responded. aku nak tau je brape ramai yg betol2 baca

please excuse me for a while.

wth?

dude, tak kisah la the intended message tuh memang benda yang betul. tapi dah penyampaian tu tak betul, maka jadi tak betullah.

e.g.

berzikir, bertasbih dan bertahmid lah kamu setiap hari.
sekiranya anda menyebarkan email ini kepada 9 juta orang dalam masa 1 minit, anda akan mendapat keberkatan rezeki yang melimpah ruah.
jika tidak, anda akan ditimpa kecelakaan dan dihentikan rezeki di dunia.

Sabda Rasulullah SAW: "sebarkanlah ajaranku walaupun satu ayat"

the sentences highlighted in green = betullah tu. baguslah berzikir, bertasbih dan bertahmid setiap hari. and menjadi tanggungjawab kita untuk menyebarkan ajaran Rasulullah SAW.

yg merah tu yg problemnya. who are we to suka-suki je cakap those things will happen? ini dah macam surat berantai dah.

you see, most of us, nampak point2 baik dan bagus, terus jump to conclusion yang the whole reminder is good. vice versa, ceteris paribus. nampak points tak baik, terus assume the whole message is not good.

if nak forward to others pon, pleaseee lah. check dulu. verify dulu, betul or not. jgn pakai forward je.

instead of pahala, entah2 free2 je dapat dosa sebab menyebarkan fitnah dan penipuan.

p/s: the same thing goes to when you ada dgr gossip or rumours. especially to PET staffs. pantang dgr rumours gaji nak naik je, terus percaya. pastu bile nothing happened, salahkan HR.

*sigh*

, , ,

am tired of repeating the same thing over and over again, only to stumble while everything seems to be going smoothly. different people, same occurances.

perhaps it's a sign. a sign for me to reconsider back. is this what i want?

part of me says "yes"; while the other side keep on telling me "the time will come".

so how?

p/s: 4 entries in one night. thanks Lene! hehe

random picture(s)

Turtle-A-Thon 2006
logo by: Sharizal
approved by: SVU --> Kimi, Peet, Cipoi, Anas dan Bet

as it is

ladies and gentlemen, some trivia facts before we start the show.

did you know, that today (2nd October 2007) marks 1 year of me as an employee of PETRONAS?
now, you know.

gosh, (this might sound cheeky) time flies really fast. sedar or not, it's one year already. and i consider myself very lucky on the facts that:

1. i am eligible for this year's bonus (the fact that i reported for duty not at 8am, but at 2pm!)
2. am in a department with good teamwork and "family" oriented
3. am reporting to a nice lady boss, and cool GM
4. i have internet access at office! hehehe
   

puasa (noun). menahan diri dari makan dari minum, dan perkara yang membatalkan dari terbit fajar hingga terbenamnya matahari

quick recap on what happened throughout August till Early October!

Malaysia International Fireworks Competition

remember the entry about the fireworks thingy? finally managed to get the pics from Naz :)

L-R: N,A,M,J

Merdeka Eve

went to Putrajaya with a gf. thot that the fireworks started at 10, so we kinda a bit rushed to get there. fortunately, the fireworks started exactly when the clock struck 12. the unfortunate part was when we had to wait for freaking 2 hours. luckily she don't mind waiting for me in the car, while i tried to get some sleep since the next day promises to be a day full of activities.

reached her place around 2am. then went for a quick supper, before went straight back home. miraculously managed to pack my stuffs in the wee hours, for the...

X3 Camp

this camp is like a motivation camp, except the participants are not your typical students-taking-exams-so-they-need-some-motivation. this camp targeted audiences are the children who spent most of their time learning and perfecting the trade of street kids. yes, they are what we call "Street Kids".

for us, they are diamond in the roughs. in fact, after 3 days full of challenging activities (physically, mentally and spiritually), we managed to get the best out of them.
*i am good*
*i am happy*
*i am excellent*

highlights of the camp? well, apart from a female facilitator (hehehe), and not forgetting Vanessa (triple hehehehe), here's a snippet of activities we did in 3 days and 2 nights:-

1. free-fall abseiling
2. rock climbing
3. caving with bats
   
4. multi-chamber caving
5. some activities in the cold river *shivers*
6. some modules in the nights
7. performances by participants and trainers
8. and of course, WHITE WATER RAFTING

the best part about this rafting is, my boat, code-named "Le Vanessa", faced several obstacles, and the crews and the captain never gave up.

1. the boat capsized. whole raft crew were thrown overboard. no casualties reported.
   
2. we went through one of the most challenging white water (a.k.a jeram), "the triple threat" in a reverse position. (instead of facing the raging streams, Vanessa the anchor steered the raft in backward position)
3. the boat capsized again. this time on purpose. :)

lesson learned: Bring It On!

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

majlis berbuka puasa bersama kawan-kawan tidak boleh dilupakan.

1. Lan, Nodi, Syeena, Nizam dan Amil @ Seoul BBQ
2. Iyra, Kudin, Shaliza, Iskandar, Faiz, Zalika, Elle, Marina, JC, Naz dan Ajamil @ EDEN Bukit Bintang
3. Group Remuneration @ KL Convex and Felda Perdana
4. Aizan, Jai, Asma, Oza, Naz, Lan, Cha'aint, Zuel, Ziad dan Bet @ Istana Gema Bayu Kosmik
   
5. Ib, Izzati, Aizan, Nads, Nad Jr, Syafiq, Lan, Suraain and Juaras @ Istana Gema Bayu Kosmik

tidak lupa juga sesi makan2 di kedai mamak.

1. Mior, Khalid, Syeh, Wafir, Helmi, and Azamil @ Ehsan and Syed ss5. (kalo ade Nik ngan Iqbal, dah cukup korum dah!)

dan tidak lupa, menghantar Alia balik ke sekolah (special request tuh)

THE END

dah abis dah..takyah scroll down laie :)

this is soo not me

(sweeping the dust off my blog)

good day, ladies and gentlemen. i am now reclaiming back http://zamiliz.blogspot.com as my rightful entity after a month of "couldn't care less" on this site's well being. (draft, less than 10 words for an entry, as well as commenting do not fall under "taking care of the blog" category)

so much to tell, yet sometimes it's hard for me to pour it out in writing. yes, i have to admit. i am not good in describing things, let alone describing people, using words. what's with my limited vocabularies of English, that is soo not helping. and yeah, not forgetting the grammar. it's like a train wreck over here.

am so used of being turned down at the last hour, that somehow i have become immune to this thing. most of the time i managed to view this thing from the positive side (e.g have other pressing matters, unplanned outing with friends, last minute work coming in, not feeling well, had to accompany someone), but once in a while, negative vibe crept inside me. am i that dispensable? is the thing planned together can easily be override by other people's plan? they think that i am OK with this thing all the time? well, sometimes yeah. it's OK, fine. but when the thought of "people might think that plan with me is not as important as plan with others" came to me, then please, by all means, please do it over and over again. i guess these people kinda enjoy making me feel miserable like this.

but luckily, this feeling comes once in a blue moon, and it does not stay too long to cause any trouble.


lesson learned: always prepare list of back-up plans.

sorry, just have to vent this negative vibe :) will post heart warming stories in next entries k? hehe