i'm still alive

i'm back.

too many things happened, things with big magnitude till events with small magnitude.
and i thought that i could braved myself, then when something really hard struck my head.
(well, basically someone who barely know me pointed this to me)

i'm the type that is so easy to get excited with things happening around me.

case 1:
out of the blue, she texted me, asking why the sudden silence. so i was overjoyed.
when i asked her out for drinks, and she had to give reasons why she cant a.k.a rejected the offer, i easily felt demoralised and yah, sad.
then when she suddenly asked me out for lunch, i was overjoyed back.
when she declined an invitation for a movie, with two different reasons given at different times, well, i guess having this ability to read between the lines, i was demoralised again. down gile.

case 2:
we were out for a whitewater rafting at Sg Kampar (my goodness, it was really good! the pictures can be viewed at my facebook). although i've been rafting before, 3 times to be exact, at the same river, i just couldn't stop feeling nervous. thanks to my poker-face practice, i managed to display a face full of confidence, while deep inside me, i was nervous!
when we start paddling, the excitement came in a rush. like a river that flows very fast when it go through the dam.
then, we did the body-rafting thingy (hell yeah, it was reallllyyy gooodddd.. especially the roller coaster part hehehe). i just had to body-raft a couple of times. the heart was pounding hard and fast. i can felt the adrenaline rush to the whole body.
and when the rafting ended where it was suppose to end, i felt.. well, calmness came and embraced me throughout the journey back to the base camp. no more adrenaline rush, no more the fast beating heart, no more feeling terrified or extremely nervous.


was about to write on something depressing, but i guess the best way for a good therapy session is to remember good and wonderful things, rather than re-imagining back all the not-so-good things.

pronce caspian is out today. and i planned to watch it tomorrow. there is a huge possibility of i'm going to watch it alone la kot. like i'm not used to it la kan? hehehe

oh ya, one of my best buddies went from the deep plunge into the dark abyss of lost love, and he's right now flying high among the stars. or should i re-word that to clouds of love? well, best of luck bro.

aku cuma nak tunggu ko buat je pengumuman tu depan kiterang. don't think you can hide the fact, when basically the whole world knows about it.
fact: the seller got sold. hahahaha..dulu konon nak jual aku, last2 ko yang terjual. ke tu sebenarnya taktik ko untuk menjual diri sendiri? hurrmmm...

final note: hopefully prince caspian is not that bad as the review(s) said.