self reflect

this is to inform that i'll be on self-imposed exile throughout July and August. meaning that i'll be taking a break from blogging for 2 months, as i am in the midst of preparing myself for something big. something important. which i really hope would change the man that i am right now. well, not totally changed. improvisation. yeah.. i hope from my self-imposed exile, i'll discover something and eventually i'll be able to improvise and motivate myself back.

godspeed.

p/s: i'm still in KL and contactable thru my gtalk, YM, msn and mobile phone :)

mood swing

had a major mood swing last Monday. everything was OK when i stepped out of the office. then, one by one unfortunate events happened, and by the time i reached home, told Ummi:

rasa macam nak tumbuk orang je

tried to control the temper, but nearly lost while having dinner with the family. decided to retire to bed and have early nite off. switched on the air-cond, switched off the lights, and lay on my bed. unfortunately, the body was shivering so much, that even when i caught some winks, the temper was haunting my sleep.
get dressed, went out to the car, and drove away from house with musics blaring from the car's speakers. after few minutes, decided that driving with uncontrollable temper is not a wise option. went back home, then forced myself to sleep.

woke up early, and feeling refreshed. but was so tired throughout the day, that i nearly lose it when a friend had to reject my invitation to watch movie together later that night.

during drive back home, thought that i had to watch Transformers. went straight to Cineleisure.

had a good night.

on the other note, so sorry alia for turning down your offer, as on that time, i thought that i'll be going out that night with a friend.

and yea, had a session with a financial planner. and by tomorrow, i have to suggest at least one name to her. referral. interested to have someone plan your financial strategy?

as for now, i'm still shivering. guess i need to let go of this temper/anger. but how?

*sigh*

i really need an escapade holiday.

and yeap, i'm getting used back to watching movies alone. (^_^)

s.i.g.n.i.n.g.o.f.f

first weekend of July

2 unhappy news received in 4 days period.

i'm in uncertain feeling.

i'm glad i've let it out of my chest, and glad she understands. she even offered to help me. i'm making it official now. she is my offline mentor. and she has publicly stated before this that i am her protege.

a good weekend, altho some outing plans had to be canceled.

Saturday: it was my cousins' wedding. the sister and the brother held the wedding reception together. and was glad to be there. i was in my Baju Melayu with Samping Songket (minus the songkok. i don't like to cover my head), and there i was, moving around the "khemah", making trips between the kitchen and the khemah, for i volunteered to help in serving the foods for the guests. the other cousins and i had this non-verbal agreement of who'll be doing what and where.

later that day, went for a futsal session with nodi, alia (she's back from induction. been missing her for 3 weeks!), syeena, nana, lan, apis, idris and his friends. was expecting lan's sister to tag along, but unfortunately she couldn't makt it for the nite.

after the routine minum2 session, went to KJ, and hang-out with Iqbal and Mior. we basically talked rubbish throughout the night, but the most important thing is, we just can't wait for Starcraft 2 !!!


Sunday:

had a meeting with the G-Team of Projek TEKAD (namely naz, asma, aizan, ziad and cha'aint) at Putrajaya. well, there was a photo-taking session first prior to the meeting.

then rushed all the way from Putrajaya to PJ, for lunch date with UTP colleagues (cipoi, salmiah, matpi and peet). had a good time with those people. the food was good (altho it was a bit pricey. RM9 for nasi putih, sayur and ayam goreng!), and the durian was EXCELLENT! :)

later that night, managed to drag along the parents to IKEA. :)

it was a good weekend. from my childhood friends way back in SRK Kg Tunku, to my Seaport best friends, to UTP geng2 sekepala, and to dearest TEKAD family. those missing are MCKK friends (eh kejap..matpi kan budak koleq..ok la, cukup syarat) and my office-mates (hurmm..naz can be considered as office-mates jugak la kan?)

i am dead tired now. but it was worth it!

hurmm.. tu je la kot.
tido2

on the way back from pangkor

there were silence in the car, so i assumed that the passengers were sleeping. then suddenly hunny asked me,

"bet, kenapa you broke off with your girlfriend?"

and i told her why. which for sure i won't post it here. and throughout me telling her why, again, she asked me another question.

"do you miss her?

shoot.

then she gave a sisterly advice.

"people evolved from being undergraduates to working adults. these two totally different worlds provide us with different environment. and that's why, you can see those lovely couples back in university, when they entered the working world, the inevitable happened. they broke-up"

"people evolves in different speed. sometimes, you may outgrow your partner, and vice-versa. this indifference, from the priorities in life, targets, see things in future, will result in both of you being incompatible to each other, resulting in frictions that lead to separation."

"time change people. don't be afraid if who you are now is totally different from who you were years ago. you might be someone else in years to come. learn from the experience. enrich your life"

"look around and find someone who will grow and evolve together with you."