in my head

peet had a serious entry in his blog. well, more on serious topic. not the writing. haha, on the hand, wrote a very deep thought entry, and she forced me to change my point of view on her way's of blogging.

well, i guess its about time pon. its time for them to join my band of serious entries. not that i am boring (i hope i am NOT), but sometimes it is fun when you know you are doing something different from others.

i was in the mood of "i'm not an important", which is really not good for my self-esteem, not forgetting self-motivation, hence i have been spending times with myself all alone. more like semi anti-socialising. hehe. more like being a kera sumbang kot? nope. please not. until yesterday, some one i knew way back from UTP, gave knowing glance, exchanged hi's and said, "baru balik induction ek?".

i nodded, and smiled.

and then we bid goodbyes.

and i was there, standing like a fool in the middle of the corridor, smiling all by myself.

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it has been nearly a week since the induction programme, affectionately known as PIPE, ended. i really enjoyed my days there. we spent about 2 weeks in Bangi, and 1 week in Terengganu. the schedule was very packed one. but to complement it, we were provided with 6 meals per day.

there were 70++ of us (can't remember the exact numbers). then, we were divided into two groups. and i was drafted into Group 1. which throughout PIPE, its members were known to be very extrovertly loud. as well as "selamba" and a bit of psycho.

each and everyone of us had different characteristics, yet we somehow bonded very well among ourselves in Group 1. with Group 2, well, that's a different story. we were like very competitive with each other, that the thought of Group 1 not being able to beat Group 2 is unbearable.

hahaha. padan muka. pecah lagi group besor tu into 2 smaller groups.

initial plan of "19 hari mencari cinta" was a failure. prior to the PIPE, friends were telling me how PIPE helped in finding your future spouse (a.k.a potential girlfriends). i guess Lady Luck is not on my side. she's too angry with me for going out with another lady kot? who knows kan?

was appointed to be the penghulu of Group 1. and luckily the others were very co-operative, and helpful. even supportive.

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jealous. this word has been in my mind for days. am i jealous? is jealousy is what i'm feeling? or is it just plain old envy? takpon, perasan syok sendiri. entahla.

good friends of mine are having a wonderful time in Bandung ( i really hope so!).

friends, when will our trip together-gether be?


s.i.g.n.i.n.g.o.f.f