cocktail

it has been a week. a week full of emotional cocktail.

the Division held its annual Quality Day last weekend, and i was part of the organising committee. one great important thing i've learnt is: men and women live in different side of the planet. or something like that.

(i see myself as one of the normal men) u see, i am the type of person that couldn't care less about tiny little weenie things. i mean, i just am not fond of looking at things into details. as long as i know its working as planned, then everything is fine. but women, especially those in the committee, they love to dive into the depth of murky water just to measure the depth of details in it. i mean, they want to know things in details. as if, who's gonna come in first, what time will the bus come, will it be on time or not, how much is exactly being spent, and stuffs like that.

me? sikit-sikit ada la jugak. kalau tak buat camtu, gile lepas tangan. but not into too details.

it has been a week. do i feel anything? i'm afraid the answer is yes and no.
no, because i was really occupied with other things that i just couldn't bother to think on other thing.
yes, because in the middle of the hectic schedule, when i was all alone and resting, the feeling came by, and knocked me inside. haunting me like the blessed ghost of christmas past.

am i regretting it? yes.
if given a chance to change things that happened, will i change it? no.

i need to hold onto this, to help me in this journey, all alone by myself.

please excuse me.

edited:
thank u, sunshine for ur concern. tgh emo2 japs :) anyway, i'm good now.

-signing off-